12-14-05 about 2am
Mood: i dunno, unsure of myself i suppose
Listening to: had some green day on, however it is done playing now
so i'm tired, it was a fun night at the fritz pad. however i have work tomorrow at 1pm. so i've gotta be ready to rock and roll. i've been really thinking about my life, where i've been, where i am, and where i'm going. at a distance i realize i seem shallow, hallow, and soulless. the shallow part i can handle, the hallow part i agree with for the time being, but the soulless part i'm not so secure about. i feel that it repels people and attracts others. the problem being that the people i want to keep close i keep pushing away. loves lost are lost either way but why should they be so disgusted by me and unwilling to communicate and be friendly? so this boggles my mind. well anyway big plans for new ink this coming weekend. hopefully i'll get both pieces done on my legs and be happy. if not i'll just go get into some trouble with the crew. and oh yeah i went sledding naked again tonight, fun stuff, you should all try it sometime. alright i have a treat for you all, some final words for the evening.
My self destruction is a choice
Not a reaction or retaliation.
Love lost is gone
Never again to flower on a dead soul
enjoy, later
