Weblog of dave

Mood: quite unhappy
Listening to: boy sets fire ~ requiem

i fucking hate life. i'm so fed up with being single mostly, but in general life really blows ass. i just really need a companion, a friend. i need to move is what i think i need to do. just move out to ohio or something and start life over. no friends, no attatchments, nothing. just go and find new people. i'm so damn tired of living here. my soul has been sucked from me and my heart broken too many times to recall. i'm tired of caring for people who don't give a fuck about me and probably wouldn't give a thought to it if i were to blast myself in the face with a 45 tomorrow. i've had similar discussions with my friends and they laugh it off but i'm serious, i don't see myself living to an old age. i just dispise society and most facets of my life. maybe i shouldnt live to old age. maybe that's what i owe society. who knows, who cares. i'm out

later