Mood: quite self annalytical
Listening to: i had some beach boys on earlier
so lets talk about stuff. how about drinking, drugs and sex with multiple partners. sound fun? ok. i'll give you a peak into my pathetic existance, a view to what you'll probably discover is the life of probably the worst human being on the planet. thus far in my life i have consumed more than my fair share of alcohol. which i'm not saying is a bad thing but i have done some horrible things thanks to this lovely substance. drugs, wanna talk about drugs? sure thing. for a while, and i mean a long while, i was clean of narcotics. now, what do i like to abuse? well lets see lately it's been weed, perks, morphine and aderall. probably forgot a few random anti depresent pills here and there which i managed to pick up but oh well that shit doesn't matter. not doing too bad on the drug front though, won't touch anything considered to be a "hard" drug. and i don't like being around other drugs as well. ok fun part, sex part. so the partners are contained to both hands, i think. so yeah that's ok i guess. who knows right. i don't feel like living to an old age anyway. nor do i care to contaminate the gene pool. when it comes to relationships, wow fun shit right there, i've had two whole girlfriends, both of which have left me and for good reason i suppose, i guess i'm just an asshole. so my chances to find someone who can stand me and who is willing to stay with me for an extended period of time so i may contaminate the gene pool seems like a very unlikely possibility. hey lets see how college is going shall we? didn't take any classes this semester, probably because i didn't do jack shit with my classes last semester. nice. oh yeah did i mention i've been at a fucking community college for 3 years with nothing to show for it but a bunch of credits. i know people i graduated with that are driving mother f'in TT roadsters and shit. what am i doing? driving my blazer, which i love, but living with my parents and working in a fucking warehouse stacking shit on pallets. oh yeah before that i designed steel framing for buildings, did i mention that? so in short life is on the down swing for me, so i will most likely end up like ian curtis of joy division and hang myself before i'm 25. so there you have it. i'm not that terrible of a person. there have been far worse people in the history of the world. but it's one sad existance i lead. downward swing indeed.