Thoughts running through my head

Mood: Deeply Depressed
Listening to: So I had a bad day

Let me pose a question. I will make it quick.

say you have tried out for something, putting your pride behind, and by some miracle, you got in.

Then you realise, a few weeks before, when you were doing the same thing you just tried out for, that your arm/leg/foot/torso is hurt.

You really want to do this thing you got into, but you might hurt the thing that is hurt, making it ten times worse.

Do you drop out of your thing you got into that was a state trial, or not?

Please, Please tell me.

Mood: Unimportant.
Listening to: Hating You by Black Magic

Hi, again, it's me.

I think this is great - at least you don't waste paper. Today was a horrible day. At least I have friends... Teenage hormones are awful. First they feel this, then that... I don't. It's weird... My friends are soo nerdy, my other ones are dramatic, I think I am a cross.

It sounds like I am talking about a dog. At least dogs who are crosses are smarter than inbred dogs.

I wish someone would comment on this blog. I feel sad.

If you do read this, can you comment? Please? I know you. You know me. You just don't know know me.

Lets say. I bet we have passed some time. Some where. Whether it be in a supermarket, on a plane, or just walking by. I know you.

If you think I don't, tell me. I might have. I might have not. I bet I will pass you in my lifetime, however short.

Oh, and you know who I am talking to: I love you. I am talking to you, and you might not know it, but I am.

Sorry I am sounding so weird. I just... felt like it.

Love, ~Mysticle~

ps: I spelt Mystical like that because I wanted it to sound like an icicle, without sounding like one. It's different.

Mood: Sad
Listening to: All I want for Christmas (yes, I know, its nowhere near christmas)

Why do I even listen to people?

Why do they think they know everything about teenagers?

Why do they act like they are better than you?

Why Can't I have my say?

Why is everything that is my problem their problem because they make it, not I?

I think I am beginning to like this blog. Thanks to everyone who commented. I think this is better than a diary... It lets me keep all my thoughts but anonymously, and... I'm blathering on again. I don't see the point of my life.

Not that I want to end it or anything... but just questioning it. Why was I put on earth? For a reason? No, I'm not religious, I'm scientific.

 I don't want to offend anyone. I don't mind religions.

My best friend is Hindu and my other friend is a buddist. Not to mention the other one who is christian. I just don't... want any commitments. Thanks for listening.

I needed that.

Mood: Tired
Listening to: Simple Plan

All the thoughts running through my head... I really hate traditional diaries.  Tell me, do you think that teenage girl's mood swings are over-rated? Some people do. I don't. It's not fair... Sometimes you feel so dark and moody. Like something is not right. I love just writing down the thoughts running through my head... Do you? Are you even going to read this? You know who I'm talking to. I had a bad day. I mean, dissecting brains? Can it get any worse? Normally I don't mind... but not today.