alone.
Mood: confused, lonely
Listening to: shania twain
Why do I feel so alone?
Like I've got noone to turn to, even though I so obviously have. I've got some good friends, and a nice boyfriend I've recently met. But I haven't got someone who I can connect with properly anymore.
I miss Paul so much. I'm scared I've made a huge mistake in getting with Si, because he's just not like Paul. Don't get me wrong Si's great but I don't know whether he's great enough. Paul was special, and I think I've thrown something truly good away. I still honestly believe I'll marry him. I just don't know what all this means.
I haven't wrote in this for a long while. Mostly because I just couldn't be arsed. I wasn't being lazy, but this week I just haven't found the energy to physically do anything. It's like my brains frozen, and I've been summoned to sleep for the past five days! I think this means that I really have got diabetes :S because all I do is drink juice and sleep! I just wish they'd hurry up and tell me, so I could get on with it.
Do you believe you have a soulmate? I do. Hand on my heart I think it's the "home" Paul, when he's not at Uni. Everything is truly perfect then.
Why do I feel like I'm with the wrong person?
