Me.

Mood: pissed off, upset, hurt
Listening to: sugarcult

Why does this always happen to me?

Why do Paul and I always get into shitty arguments, that end up in a slagging match and not speaking for ages?

Everything was fine yesterday, up until when he rang me last night.  We ended up arguing about some batteries, how ridiculous.  I told him to get some rechargable batteries for his trip to Thailand, but he wouldn't listen.  So then the argument developed into a whole load of other shit as usual, and now he's just being a complete asshole.

I was sick last night, but dad made me go to school anyway, so I was feeling shit enough without having Paul on my back too.  Anyway, I apologised, even though I didn't think I was in the wrong, and he didn't have the decency to say anything back.  I text him numerous times today, all of which he completely ignored.  So then I rang him and asked him why he was treating me like this.  His answer was "im busy on my computer".  I then rang him later on, asking again why he was ignoring me, and he was "busy making his tea".  I mean, how fucking hard is it to text someone back, or just text someone saying you're busy?  I really don't understand him.  I'm seeing a horrible side of him I never knew about.  A side that hurts me and accuses me of shit.  Like, he accused me of hating him before.  I mean, I fucking love him, so how fucking dare he say something so ridiculous as that.  And he said I've got a grudge against him.  A grudge against what exactly?  I have absolutely no idea what the fuck he keeps going on about.  All of it doesn't make sense, none of it at all.

I feel like we're drifting apart again, in like the space of a day.  I'd felt so close to him recently, and now it's just going to pieces.  I have this awful feeling that he doesn't want to be with me anymore.

Maybe he wants to be with that girl again.  That fucking bitch who touched him.