Me.

Mood: okay
Listening to: james blunt

Just a quick blog today, because I'm a busy bee.  Lots of Coursework etc to do, what fun.

My day was okay I guess.  Better than yesterday but still pretty crap.  I had more panic attacks, so more missing lessons :( that may sound good for some people, missing lessons, but this is my last year at school so it's hard enough without having to miss important stuff aswell.

I'm quite excited about Saturday night though.  It's my friend H's 18th birthday, so we're all going to a party at her house.  That should be pretty cool, apart from the fact that I'm not really supposed to drink, because of all the pills I'm on.  But I will just drink a small amount, and then stop.  But Ste said he'll only drink the same amount as I do, so I'm not left on my own.  He said we can be slightly sober together!  Bless him, I love that guy.  Lots!  But only as a best friend, so don't get the wrong idea!  He looks after me so much, so I don't know what I'd do without him!  I'm gonna have to cope without him though next September :( because I'm moving away to go to Uni, and he's just getting a job where we live.  He's going to come up to see me as often as possible though, so he's not gonna get rid of me that easily :D I hope I don't miss him too much when he's not there.  Him and my girl best friend are the only two people I'm gonna really miss from school.  I don't care about anyone else much.  How selfish is that!  No, only because they don't give a shit about me.  I'm just their "friend", if you can call it that.  Someone to sit with in school, or go shopping with, or get drunk with.  Not someone who we could confide our secrets with, or help each other if we were down.  I've got enough people to confide my secrets with though, thankyou very much.  If I was asked "which three people out of your friends would you save if an earthquake was coming, and you were the only person who had a car to get away from it?"  I definitely know who the three people would be.  That probably sounds really mean though, but if it had to be done I know who I'd pick.  Think about it, I'm sure you'd have three people in your head and think about doing the same!

Anyway that's me done for now.  I think I'd better go and have a shower, because I probably smell really bad!

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