Me.

Mood: random
Listening to: the killers

I just can’t look its killing me,
And taking control,

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea,
Swimming through sick lullabies,
Choking on your alibis,
But it’s just the price I pay,
Destiny is calling me,
Open up my eager eyes,

‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside.

"The song is about the deep dark depths of the jealous mind. It's a dark place sometimes, and I think we captured it pretty well."  So true.

 

My mind gets too jealous.  Far too jealous.  This is my favourite song in the whole wide world, and I've jsut realised how much meaning it really has in it.

I <3 it.

Mood: sad :(
Listening to: sugarcult

I want to get out.

Away.

Away from all this shit that keeps happening around me.

I'm so tempted to go back to all my old ways again, even though it only solves things for a short period of time.  But it's so easy to slip into all that again.  All you have to do is grab one thing...

I feel so shit.  Like half of me is missing.  I miss Paul so much, and I want him to come home so badly.  I need him so much and I'm not used to having to cope with shit on my own.  He's always been here for me.  Always.

I've never felt so alone.  I need him so badly right now :'(