Why?
Mood: pissed off, upset, hurt
Listening to: sugarcult
Why does this always happen to me?
Why do Paul and I always get into shitty arguments, that end up in a slagging match and not speaking for ages?
Everything was fine yesterday, up until when he rang me last night. We ended up arguing about some batteries, how ridiculous. I told him to get some rechargable batteries for his trip to Thailand, but he wouldn't listen. So then the argument developed into a whole load of other shit as usual, and now he's just being a complete asshole.
I was sick last night, but dad made me go to school anyway, so I was feeling shit enough without having Paul on my back too. Anyway, I apologised, even though I didn't think I was in the wrong, and he didn't have the decency to say anything back. I text him numerous times today, all of which he completely ignored. So then I rang him and asked him why he was treating me like this. His answer was "im busy on my computer". I then rang him later on, asking again why he was ignoring me, and he was "busy making his tea". I mean, how fucking hard is it to text someone back, or just text someone saying you're busy? I really don't understand him. I'm seeing a horrible side of him I never knew about. A side that hurts me and accuses me of shit. Like, he accused me of hating him before. I mean, I fucking love him, so how fucking dare he say something so ridiculous as that. And he said I've got a grudge against him. A grudge against what exactly? I have absolutely no idea what the fuck he keeps going on about. All of it doesn't make sense, none of it at all.
I feel like we're drifting apart again, in like the space of a day. I'd felt so close to him recently, and now it's just going to pieces. I have this awful feeling that he doesn't want to be with me anymore.
Maybe he wants to be with that girl again. That fucking bitch who touched him.
