Another fabulous day in Small Town USA
So here I am, didn't update all weekend, then was in training and out of the office all day yesterday, and since the boyfriend is off I didn't get a chance to go on the computer at home. So a quickie update for ya'll.
Friday, I don't even remember what the hell we did, I worked the morning, that's about it...oh yeah we packed and rented movies....Saturday we went fishing, we were only plannin on staying 4 hours, well we stayed out like 7 hours. Caught lots of bass and bluegill, but none worth keeping, too small. It was fun though...caught my first fish of the season! LOL...Oh and got super sunburnt on my legs, OWWWWWW...and took mini Angel out and taught her to swim...she was PISSED OFF!!! It was cute, she was so mad, she was rubbing herself on her pet carrier bag thing, and she wouldn't even look at me...poor spoiled brat! Haa haa...came home and bummed around. Sunday we had the kids and so we went to visit my mom and do some shopping...then my boyfriend got all pissed off at me and we had a STUPID fight, it was so dumb, but he pissed me off by saying some mean things over something stupid, whatever! We went home, fed the kids took them back to their moms, then went fishing again, didn't catch nothiing, it was cold and rainy out...came home, ate dinner, and that was about it.
Monday, well I had training at work all morning then a field visit after lunch so it was an a-okay day. Today, well my best friend starts a job, she hasn't worked in over a month so she is super psyched! As for me, well nothing happy and bright in store for me today, my boyfriend goes back to work tonight, so I will probably be on pogo playing games later on! haa haa...other than that, not much else is happening here.We may have a buyer for my ghettro, so now I am starting to freak out. The new car is in both my boyfriend and my name, but now that I will no longer have a car of my own that I can take if I need to leave...I am freakin out...what if something goes bad, my boyfriend and I separate or something, what can we do, I can't really take the car and leave...but I know I should be optimistic that all will be well, but I am seriously starting to freak out. This whole, ,buying a car together and buying a house together is really finally starting to hit me...the reality and ginormous-ness of it all is starting to sink in. I've only been with him 1 year and 4 months...we're not married, we don't have kids, I have a dog but that's it, we aren't engaged, and here I am making all these crazy plans...I hope I am not digging myself a deep grave.
Okay, I need to get some work done. I will be going to the library today to get me some new books as I am done with the ones I wanted to read that I have! Take it easy ya'll!
Your feelings are completely normal. Don\'t disregard them. It\'s hard to trust someone 100% when they won\'t commit to you 100% and you want them to. I hope that made sense. Anyway - what I\'ve always done, if you want to know, is had a plan B. Always have a backup plan. If that means saving a lil money in a secret bank account for the \'just in case something happens\' fund - so be it. Others may say, \'that isn\'t fair\' or \'you\'re anting him to commit fully so why aren\'t you?\' BLAH! The reality of the matter is, nothing is permanent. So just be sure you will be able to take care of you without him. Im not saying that WILL happen, just figure out how you can. =]
You\'re the best. Stupid fights are always going to happen. Just hang in there and if you can make up and/or get over it together and move on, you\'re doin fantastic!
Love you so much!
xoxo
Shel