Am I a Control Freak?
Okay, well I tried to fix the link thing, I don't know if it works, I think it might since I got the Web Washer warning here at work. If not well I will have to fight with it at home later. Anyways, so my night wasn't too exciting, My boyfriend has to work nights so he wasn't around. He has been kinda a jerk though, at least in my opinion. He works with our neighbor, his friend...and well he spends most of the time on his days off with him as well...then he gets mad at me for getting mad at him when he goes over to his house while I am home. He doesn't get it, though I've told him over and over again why it bugs me. He says he's sorry, won't do it again, doesn't mean to make me feel like he doesn't care and that I always come last.
So an example: Okay, everytime we go anywhere, as soon as we get home he looks across the street to see if Rob is home, or outside. Well he had to work yesterday, about 3 times before he decided to go out he opens up the door to look outside and see if Rob is out there...So yesterday he left the house to go wait for his ride to work at 5:15 cuz "Rob's gotta work dispatch tonight so we gotta leave early" okay, fine, I'm surprised he stayed that long since he looked out the door about 3 times already too see if Rob was out there, as soon as he was out there (5:15) guess who tells me they have to go to work early! Anyways, Angel has to pee around 5:30 so I take her out, and guess what, they are still outside waiting for their ride, that didn't show up until around 5:45, gotta leave early huh! That just irked me because it is like why the hell do I even bother trying to get home early so I can spend time with him before he goes to work, he leaves anyways when I am there to hang out with someone he sees every flippin day anyway. Grrrr...it's just so frustrating, so today I didn't come in until quarter to 7 this morning so I won't be home until around 4 or so, I don't even care. As long as he's home Angel is fine because he will let her out around 3 when he gets up so I am not worried at all.
Okay, so maybe I'm overreacting and maybe it's womanly hormones or some crap like that, but I am always sick of coming last and having everyone else come first, I mean I live with him, doesn't that mean something? Or am I too controlling? I heard his friend Rob ask him the other night while my boyfriend went over to show off his new truck parts, as he was walking back inside Rob asks "What you can't play anymore?" Haa haa haa...so does that mean I am a control freak and that my boyfriend needs to ask my permission to do anything? Or is that what he's telling all his friends about me? I don't make him do that, I do get mad when he is hanging out with them sometimes, not all the time, but that is only because I hardly see him and usually he's spent the last 5 days and even most of that day with them and not me, and when I am there I'd like him to want to hang out with me. Sometimes though, I understand he has stuff to do with them and that's fine, as long as he doesn't lie about it, I don't care. Whatever...this may make me a control freak, if so I wish he'd tell me so I can get out of there and move on with my life With or WIthout Him....
Anywho, so last night I did some more crocheting and played online a bit, POGO is EVILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!! Other than that, not much. Had some wine which was good...but that's abot it. Anywho I best get back to work now! Take care!
