Weblog of Michael

Jun 21, 2005 at 22:21 o\clock

Time

Mood: Reflective
Listening to: The Chambers Brothers

"and the poets down here don't write nothing at all, they just stand back and let it all be" (Thanks Bruce). Or, as St. Robert of Hibbing said, "try imagining a time when God and her were born - "come in" she said, "I'll give ya shelter from the storm" (or words to that effect). So, I play my air Kalimba and pretend to drink some Red Stripe. It's the rum coco's I avoid. Like that Iguana night when I got tied in the hamaca. Watching the sunset on the beach in Mazatlan drinking the mezcal the little kid brings in his shoeshine box. Worm and all. It's all very democratic, the entire town seems to drift down to take in the free show. "El Set" we call it. Spanglish at it's worst. After five or six mezcals we wander down the sand looking for beach glass. The hamaca salesmen are gone leaving the beach to the tourists and those locals with no work. The playapa beach bar is just plugging in - maybe the band will actually play tonight, unlike last night when they dissapeared down the beach to blow some smoke and never came back. So it was sweaty disco from a boom box, but with enough mezcal in us we didn't care. We danced with the locals who tried to get us to go "out back" and smoke up some ganga, but we were to drunk and knew we'd have to walk back to the camp ground. At four in the morning we stagger down the shore line running back and forth in the surf. I try to take off my clothes but she reminds me that the Mexican's will put up with a lot of silliness from us touristas, but they frown on nudity. As usual her better sense (even when drunk) keeps me from making a complete fool of myself. We'll have to wait to get back to St. John or Sand Bridge to get naked in the surf. We crawl back into the tent all sweaty and salty. The sky is begining to get lighter over the mountains. The rainbow people return from where ever it is they go in their custom bus at night. Another night on the beach. We'll sleep till noon. The little kid with the afternoon mezcal now appears with an old styro full of ice. We buy some from him for our own cooler (I need some for my head) and I begin to think about food. Get the driftwood cutting board and chop, chop, chop. Chilis, tomatoes, cilantro, more chilis, some chorizo and some of the leftover refried beans from last night. Fire up the Coleman, heat up the olive oil, toss in the tortillas - corn for me, flour for her - pop open the first beer of the day. Red Stripe. Stir fry the veggies, crack a few eggs, throw in the chorizo, pour in a dollop of brew. Fry up the tortillas, dump on the habanero sauce, add the cheese. Sauce blood red from the chili. Sun burning white hot in the sky. Azure ocean at our door step. Palm trees overhead. Warm southwest air coming in from far over the southern Pacific. Time. Remember me.

Jun 21, 2005 at 20:29 o\clock

Glory

Mood: Il penseroso
Listening to: Not the Doors

It was just a consequence of sunlight interacting with a mass of tiny suspended water droplets. They, of uniform size, refracted the sun's rays upon entering the droplet, then followed by a single internal reflection, the light got refracted again upon exiting. This magical light was refracted, reflected and refracted again directly back at me. I was standing on the rocky knob, sun directly behind me. I saw my shadow surrounded by a halo of rainbow light. In the past this was referred to as the Brocken specter (from Brocken in the Harz mountains). Lest I presume that I have been singled out, well, it's just an atmospheric light show. None the less I stood transfixed. The fog from the winding river valley was drifting below me, following the terrain. The forest covered hills luxuriating in the warm moist air. The rainbow halo moved with me as I changed position on the granite rock. With the lake off to my left and the awakening village below, the only ones to share my Glory were the two black crows keeping watch from the branches of a nearby pine. They'd seen all this before. Some self important human watching his shadow against the fog. Ever the watchful and patient birds they were more interested in the humans when a meal was presented from food cast away by the wasteful ones. But this morning found them silent. Could they recognize me from their rock on the pond? Were they the ones who followed so carefully my trek across the ice river? How many years do they live? Do they pass along secrets to their young? When I looked at them full in the face they flew away. I looked back towards the Glory and watched as a Bald Eagle flew in from the lake. How perfect it would have been to have it fly directly into the rainbow halo - but no, it had other ideas, other places to go. I watched it soar over the pines as the fog rose up and obscured the sun. The Glory faded, the crows had fled, and the eagle dissapeared in the mist. I pulled up my hood and started down the steep path leaving any immortality behind on the barren rock peak.

Jun 19, 2005 at 20:06 o\clock

Folly

Mood: anticipation
Listening to: ocean child

When I'm down from the cloud tower and off the grid, I spend time with my little sailboat. She waits patiently moored in a lake on the western edge of the mountains. She was much loved by a father and has come down to me by way of a daughter fair. She is very forgiving under my novices hand, yet lets me know when I haul her to close to the wind, or will smack me with the boom if I let her jibe. However, when the bit is in her teeth, and the east wind blows strong across the lake, her centerboard shudders and the wake astern ripples and sings. We fly across the little lake. She reaches for the lee shore; I long for an ocean crossing. I want to take her where she's never been. She's a solid little craft born on the Cape. I have plans for us both. I've ordered a new sail and think about where to store my gear. We're only 60 miles from the sea. She's fifteen feet long and Folly is her name. Did Erasmus know of this little idea when he wrote his book? He too knew about towers and how they elevate and isolate. Is this place in the mind really the best of all possible worlds? What was Voltaire holding back? Did he really recant on his death bed? These things fall astern as we feel the wind fill the sail and leave the mooring behind. Back in the frozen world I held this place in my mind. During the long nights in the tent my dreams were of the liquid water world. Sleeping on the ice I could sense the silent water below, coursing like thickened blood, around and about the weeds and rocks making it's way to the sea. Everything always in a state of returning to the sea. From winter on the ice, and spring in the cloud tower, my thoughts are always returning to the sea. When Folly teaches how she wants to be handled, and I show her where I want to go, we'll be ready.

Jun 12, 2005 at 22:37 o\clock

So this is Flag Day

Mood: To Be or not
Listening to: the clouds drifting by

Most days up here in the cloud tower are the same as the rest. Plenty of time to sit and watch the weather and it's effect on the surrounding environment. Plenty of time to reflect. Plenty of something we have all to little of - time. With the right music and the right combination of clouds and wind one's thoughts drift and twine about like leaves on an autumn afternoon. How it would be to just drift out among the clouds and float above the landscape. Like snowflakes. Like dust. Like a flag fluttering in the wind. Like the flag of someone born on Flag Day. One. That's what I called her. One. She of flashing smile. She of smashing intellect. Mention her name and the sun comes out and flashes rainbows from the prisms glued to the window sill. Think her and the clouds roll over the sun and darken the land. The river runs dry and the ocean cries out. The body memory. The brain memory. Empty the bottle and there is still a little left. A little left to drink to her on her day. On her Flag Day. Seconds tick the time out. One. The first prime number. Indivisiible, under what god? With trust and fixation for all. I think of her when I hang out the clothes. We live to long. Or not long enough. The wheels run down the black road into the hazy distance. Heat risers and dust devils ply the landscape. I see her in the rearview mirror. I feel her on the seat behind me. We leave the city behind and come into the city. Out betond the Platte. Dip in the Snake. There is something grand about those Tetons. A fire left too long draws the ranger, a darkened tower looms above us, grooved scratches reaching the sky. This tangled web of images, these pathways, are easy to feel here in the cloud tower. Where everything changes everything. A food interval arrives and the shift changes. I look down on the observation deck and watch the torn remnants of the flag flutter in the wind. The ever present wind. I long for the wind to erase the sand from my thought forms. To brush them and keep them bright. To protect them from the lips of the moth and the burnished light of the sun. But most of all I wish to brush away the flag from her face. To erase time and space. And like that dark child on the high seas make everything all right. To be safe and warm, wanted and loved. To never have to say never. To return to nevernever land and never grow up. To run down the green grassy meadow towards the blue ocean forever. .................... together. These were my thoughts as I stood alone in the cloud tower watching the bright new dawn of yet another flag day.

Jun 6, 2005 at 16:51 o\clock

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Listening to: Koianiskatsi

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