Mood: all sorts
Listening to: the white stripes-blue orchid
i dont no if im happy or not.....errrrr.......i wanna just 4get about me and krissy and start a new life with emily but errrrrrr i have a problem.....emily dont love me no more........dam.......well......i i did get back with emily then i would just easily 4get about krissy......i wanna be free.....i wanna go out and have fun...but about 20 reasons are stopping me.....ahhhhhh!!!!!....i dont no do i? know wat? ahhh!! i anser my qestions i think of then it always ends out with more qestions and less ansers....... if only....... i say that word alot..... because im a person who dusnt have much...... or much to look forward to either..... im sat here drinking LOTS of coke at 2:30 in the morning..... drowding in my sorrow once again...... but every time my mind wonders i always start thinking of emily then i start to think of krissy and then i wonder wat jamie is like how old he is etc. well.... its none of my buisness... ha! owell....... i was in-love ONCE and only once yes krissy i wasnt IN-LOVE with u i just loved u...... with emily it was like errrrr..... different..i dont no how but it just felt...... right... like it was my destiny from birth and emily is probably sat there laughing at me right now while reading thsi but owell.... she has sum1 else now......and if she is happy i am too...i think....... i just want ALL my freinds to be happy and full of life and looking forward to the future..... but y cant i do that...all i do all day is play on my playstation to take my mind off things.. but that aint gonna change anything...ive learned that if u want something u go out and get it and i could do that... but there aint no point... and emily and krissy im not gonna tell u wich one of u i wanna b with lol i dont no......but i no that krissy would just say " its over get over me" and ill just say "i cant" like always.......i feel like screaming....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! *ahem* that made me feel better... and i even got a bonus!! i woke up next door!! yay!! wow!! isnt it just fun being on ur own....i feel like getting pissed again.....lol and guess wot!!! have u noticed that ever since i split up with krissy nearly after every sentence i put aload of dots lol...... see!!!......owelll its just a habit....... oh btw i LOVE that song ermmm wot was it again..... oh yer the white stripes-blue orchid.....i fucking LOVE that song lol......i mite turn goth......lol just kiddin!! but ive gave it some thought but trust me i wont lol.....even if i did wots it to u!!? huh???well!!? lol just jokin....... im trying to make this blog entry as long as i possibly can...lol i have so much penance......now i garantee that NONE of u no wot penance means!! well look it up!!!lol ahhhhh!!!! i liek screaming now its so fun......i wanna go swimming......but i cant reece is STILL at camping with his cousin!!!!I MEAN FUCKING HELL!!!!! WOT THE FUCK ARE THEY DOING!!? BUMMING EACHOTHER!!!!?JESUS CHRIST!!!! (sigh) owell life is a shit hole to be honest im trying to make it bright and joyfull!! but it ends up a load of bollox!! ahhhh wats the fukin point of living if ur not going to enjoy it? acactly i only live 4 one reason!!!LOVE!!! lol i need sum1 to hold in my arms sum1 like......hilary duff!!!lmao!!! just kiddin actaully no!!! KATE HUDSON!!!!! she is soooo fit!!!omg!!!lol im gonna get LOADS more pictures of her on my wall because SOMEBODY(krissy) made me take them down and put them in the bin!!even my fav one!!or i could put some pics of emily on my wall lol...if she will let me......she is cute to be honest every one says she looks like a slut sorry emily but they do im sorry but she dusnt tho...its like there jelous or summint lol because she ahs me!! and they dont!!! lmao just kiddin!!i wish!!i also wanna c that really FIT GIRL i saw at the sk8 park that day...she had a red and orange hat on(like hat boi's hat)lol she was so fit i saw her....ermmm..... 2 days b4 i took the picture of those bois....i winder all the time....if i didnt take that picture would me and krissy still be 2geva?....cus she sed she only stopped loving me because i took that picture wich i think is POTHETIC!!!! if she stopped loving cus of that then she never really loved me in the first place in my eyes it was just LUST.....lol anyway my family is back from nightclub i am now listening to indian music lol but the rock music on!!!!it rocks!!!obviously lol well goodbye.....
