perfect
Mood: unsatisfied
just got back from my boyfriends house,which was total shit.,
we were watching the O.C...and thats why everything went down hill form there...Hmmm i wonder why..
why do fuckers have to produce shows with perfect couples in them? only to make your relationship seem like a piece of crap! well mine sure does feel like a load of it.compared to summer and seth (my idol couple) i swear if i had what they had id never complain about anything for the rest of my life!
anyways at the end of the Perfect O.C. ofcourse chris had to act that a female and get pissed off at me for saying that theres nothing wrong being in a porno flick.i also said that if i was poor id starr in one to make some cash. well the shit hit the fan when i said that ofcourse. typical chris. somtimes he makes me feel like IM a piece of worthless shit...just cuz His shit dont stink.
Hes the total oppostite of what i want in a guy...so why do i stay with him? is it because im scared of being alone. or ive put sooo much time and energy into this relationship that i dont wanna throw it all away.
i mean and even the sex....for instance..today it was amazing...(because i did all the kinky shit) i put more effort into it then him, he just wants the" orgasm". and he got it alright...and guess who didnt. Me!!!!
I wish i could find a guy like seth..and if i did...id never let him go.
