change
Mood: bored
how come everything is different now?
i remember how when i was younger ...i wouldnt go one day without telling her about 10 times a day how much i loved her.
now, that i dont live with her anymore and ive (we've) been through so many bad situations and homes and so on...i dont really think of her that much and i dont even think about telling her that i miss her at all...its scary cuz i dont even think i miss her.
It got to so bad to the point where she tracked down my father and reunited us back together,wich i think was because she couldnt take care of me anymore or she just got to lazy to.
its kinda sad that i think of it that way but...i cant help it. it was always such a hassel for her to take care of me or somthing.and it doesnt help that my older sister keeps telling me that she was a horrible mother and so on. right now my sister if really distant to her and my older brother hasnt even spoken to her which feels like a decade. i just wish that everything turned out better. i wish my mother didnt depend on (crapy) men. i wish she was more independant!
