of course this monring he's in a very good mood, trying to be so darn understanding, listening etc. He always does that after he's been doing something he shouldn't.
I told him that it was wrong of him to pull ds hair yesterday but he doesn't think so. He thought it would teach him a lesson....whatever.
Have my doctor's appointment this morning. I'm feeling very stressed and out of it today. feels like life is running away from me.
Mood: stressed
Ok, moved my blog again. Hopefully I can keep it here, seems like a good place.
So where are we??? I'm falling. Faster than I thought possible and it's scaring the heck out of me. I don't like this feeling of losing control. I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow morning for some new meds. Blah....meds meds meds...wish I could just be happy, kwim? Depression sucks big time, let me tell you. I'm not even happy when I'm with the kids anymore, everything is such a chore. There is chaos everywhere, I don't get anything done.
IH (stands for Idiot Husband) was horrible today. Ds was playfighting with dd. He pulled her hair...I imagine ALL toddlers do... Do you know what IH did? He picked up ds and tugged his hair really hard. I have never heard the little one cry like that. IH wouldn't give him to me to comfort him either. It was so horrible I just died inside. I had promised myself to get the hell out of here before he ever did anything to the kids and here I am.....What a wonderful mommy, eh?
We have another counselling appt on Thursday. Again I will speak my mind. I don't see where this marriage is going. I wouldn't really call it a marriage but in lack of better words...
