life as me

                                          life as me

my name is kaye and i am 25 i would like to tell you about me as i have overcome alot in my life .

i used to think that i would never be brave or have any confedance at all this all started when i was a teenager really and when i was at highschool.........i used to get bullied bad and i don't mean name calling they used to  brake my bones this is when i started to become anxious everyday i used to hate going to school because of it i left school early than i should have but fears started getting the best of me i never used to like going out in public and i was starting to be a prisoner in my own home as home felt safe for me anyaway i started to get professional help they were good but i still never wanted to leave the house would i ever leave? .........every time i started to go out i was getting pannic attacks and they were really bad i got told i suffered from phobic anxiety we that is just the tip of the iceberg for me as fuether down the line i got told i suffered from depression i found life to be quite a struggle alot of the times i was angry at myself i couldnt find a way i could break through the mental ilness then i slowly started to go out not on my own but it was still going out later down the line yet again i got told i suffer from post tromatic stress disorder yest another set back for me.

i started using my will power and positive thinking and i also tought myself how to calm myself if i was having a panic attack atlast i was starting to slowly overcome this. i even found a boyfriend and we got married and i had a lovey daughter who is 5 now but the marrage broke down start of jan this year but i have a lovley daughter who keeps me going everyday she gives me so much hope and i am so happy i have a lovley daughter.  i am disabled and at the momment me and my daughter are staying at my mums and i have got lots of confedance now i still have anxiety and i dont go out on my own but i am now enjoying my life i have alot of hobbies as i love the internet lol and i also dj on a site on the net i never thought i could speak to so many people on the air but i love it. everyday is like a new chapter opening for me and i can see a bright future ahead what i want to do is tell people who are going through the things i have is there is light at the end of the tunnel even if it feels like you getting nowhere  i had to fight my brain in a way as that is what has been holding me back all thoes years and why should i let the bully's ruin my life i aint i will fight these mental ilnesses all the way and i will beat it !!!!!

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