The Life of Lela

Mood: In Limbo
Listening to: bird talk

Crystal clear morning, yet my thoughts feel a bit muddled and scattered. Feel like I'm standing on the shore with my toes in the surf deciding whether to wade in or not. Part of me feels too tired to deal with the inevitable consequences, the thrills of riding the waves juxaposes too easily with the aftermath of 'velocity burns' and the required time to rejuvenate. Wouldn't it just be 'easier not to' for once, stay in the quiet tidal pool region and watch the events instead of diving in headfirst.

Quite a crossroads to consider. To challenge or accept, is this the issue, or is it a bizzare attempt to avoid the inevitable bruising that comes from tangling with nature. I chose in each moment which direction I will take, whether to stand firm or flee, and I imagine it will be fascinating to discover which I will do next. I'm always the last one to know, it seems!

Mood: optimistic
Listening to: the trade wind

The Disclosure Project

A new day dawns, and with it a new opportunity. Something set in motion in the midst of chaos has arisen and has injected a sense of coming out of the darkness into the incandescant dawn. It's not light yet, but it seems to be brightening up!

My mental journeys today have lead me around our planet, our solar system and our collective consciousness. The growing, pulsating energy that I perceive as enveloping our lives seems more viable than ever.

I listened to Dr. Greer of The Disclosure Project on a recorded radio program today and was once again reminded that our introduction into the galactic neighborhood is just around the corner. That is, for all of us, not just the select few who have so far been controlling this information. Exposure to this type of data renews my faith that we can unite once given the necessary strength to stand up against the forces which have held us down for so long. Our resiliency will become obvious once we are released from the crushing illusions which have bound our energy to useless tasks and empty promises.

Yes, a new day has dawned, let it be the beginning of the beginning!

Mood: Seeking Order from Chaos
Listening to: Myself

The cascade of recent events in my life has made me take a good long look at the forces that sweep through our lives and restructure our realities. For each action there is a reaction, and it seems that for each high there is always a low.

I have tried to inprint my mental software with the big overall picture of our universe as a great electrical creature that is thereby benign of judgement or punishment, but it merely involved in a dance of balancing the positive and negative aspects of creation. This huge spiralling pattern has great chaotic moments as energy fields untangle and reposition themselves to equilibrium.

This process, unfortunately for us on a low vibratory level, often creates havoc in our personal realities and unleashes a string of 'bad luck' scenarios where it seems only negative processes are being activated. This creates a snowball effect until a point is reached whereby all effort seems useless and all previous avenues of access are closed.

Of course, it is at this exact point that we must get up and dust ourselves off and recommit to making life worth living again. As my friend told me when I rattled off the list of things that had gone wrong in my life over the past two weeks: "Great, now your done with all that and can do anything you want."

Which is, of course, the outlook one should take when trying to determine why everything seems to go wrong at once. If I have learned any one thing through these years of defeats and glories, it is that we can always start again, there is no finite amount of ways to live in our world. It's just a matter of redefining our programming and daring to take a leap into the unknown.

So, off I go to do exactly that. I felt it appropriate that I alert the internet, since it has been my panacea through this process. I am grateful for the wisdom which has flowed to me through this medium, and anxious to work withing it's context to catalog my newest journey within the matrix.