Kooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooky.

Mood: bored............................................
Listening to: nothing.................................................

hey! im here agen ( that last entry was a little wierd but who cares!)and ive just erased (ha that word has arse in it!) so have to re write it (oh crap no it doesn opps!) anyway im bored and no one good on msn, the only time im on here for hours and no one is on! typical lol please someone come online *begs on hands and knees*......nope no one loves mi *sob* my ex bf is but hes an arse so cant be bothered, well he will do for nw...................the dots express my bordem lol................................sorry for the over use of the word lol too.i need some good tunes but dont have any.great.think im going to have abit to drink or brb!....................................................back! wow isnt carlsberg great hehehehe.only 2nd bottle of im oki for nw. hope i dont drink too much.god im bad when i do! not as in the effects just what i do lol! i dont have hangovers so thats good!.20:15pm.lol thought it sounded good saying the time.well my ex fucked off into shower and im a loner! wow! oh wait, someone from college talking to mi.oh great hes complaining hes bored!.20:16pm.someones signed into msn! oh hes boring.im going to stop doing that im sure your bored of that and reading this! so leave it for nw! lol x.

Mood: quite horney and pissed off.
Listening to: nothing good, a crap song called beating heart baby i was just sent.

Hi! im here to write some more total random crap but hey! just read this lads weblog on here and some of the stuff on its wierd like his pictures of his boxers with sck on, er nice!  some of its a little wierd but doesnt change my opinion of him. its so wierd talking to him now cause..... hope he doesnt read this otherwise im going to be slightly embarased!..... ive sort of had thing for him since we started college but its taken till now for mi to talk to him! ive only had one bf in college and that was though being pressured and everyone going on at mi so that relationship doesnt count! he was nice but just not my type, plus i was being someone i wasnt, like i tried to fit in with other people by dressing like a trendy basically, low cute jeans and being all pinkified and stuff, wasnt an identity crisis cause out of college i had my band (which ive left! you could only take so much phsyical abuse from someone!), being with my mates who arnt in college but still cool. but you need friends at college so even if i arent intrested in anything they are, you need some people to talk to! but some people jus so annoying! anyway, im tallking to this lad, finally someone who has similar intrestes to mi! taken mi from the begining of college to have the courage to talk to him. i didnt stalk him or anything, just watched at a distance, you know when your invisable to someone, that sort of feeling. not the nicest feeling either. its wierd cause we know quite abit bout each other and ive grown to like him more.i dont go for ugly lads and this lad is so damm fine and he has the great personality to match. i sent him a random email once and blamed it on my mate cause i thoguht OMG he wont talk to mi if im like that so sent him another saying sorry! the only thing that bothers mi is him liking mi. ive no idea what he thinks of mi, hes told mi i look nice, which is good to know and mentioned on his weblog that i seem pretty cool so that positive but it would be gutting if he only wanted to be friends. i like him sooooo much, ive never been this into a lad before and seen as its been since the begining of college its more than just a crush. i reckon anyway lol i thought id write all this cause its been killing mi inside! hes just left msn ( we were talking minute ago) so im alone lol hehehehe not totally, ive that annoying twat i told you bout earlier who wont leave mi alone! im pissed off too cause i bought a guitar and it was supposed to come today but it hasnt *sob* so i just went and beat the hell out of my drums, which ive sold and lose them tomo joy :-( im keeping the sticks for the old good times sake anyway. im having pretty bad time dealing with my OCD disorder too. i wa scoping with it fine until today and its really come back strong. hard to describe but im feeling so down i could cry. actually i am crying writing this cause the thought of still having these disorders is bad enough. 4 fucking years and cant stop them, easy enough to say, jus dont think bout those things or stop yourself doing stuff but its too hard to stop! and the thing is im alone in all this which makes it worse. your supposed to talk to someone about them but im not close enough with anyone to talk about them too. my sista is the oppersite to mi and so is my bro, my mum and dad live in a fantasy world about mi being perfect and all. the only person ive slightly mention these to is my sistas fiance but was briefly and he wasnt too intrested. thats my problem, the bullying started this (OMG how personal is this becoming!) its held mi back from real friends and trying to rebuild myself is kind of helping so should be gratefull for that at least, anywy  think this is long enough! im going to stop lol x.

Mood: hyper!
Listening to: nothing

hello! sorry bout the random title im in a wierd mood, not to mention knackared! i didnt slep at all! college was about as fun as a cucumber and went as fast as a wet lettuce leaf!!!! hehehehe with ants and jet packs lol sorry dont ask where that came from! im winding some lad at the minute, reckoning to kick his ass which in quite prepared to do lol think im scaring him so best stop! im kind of bored and need to sort some stuff so write later on bye x.

Mood: damm fine
Listening to: slipknot - dont ask what song just afew

Hello, well this is new to mi so im going to write alot of random crap! guess i could write something about my day........errrr.......*thinks*...........well ive not exactly done much! just looked for a guitar but OMG its hard work lol! tried sorting my sista and her bf / fiances relationship stuff, well not sort it but he rang mi to ask what was wrong with her! to cut a long story short shes annoyed at him over nothing and hes worried! id comment on my love life but its not existant at the moment *sob* lol! oh thought of something, mi and my sista (Sarah, if you want to know her name!) watched our baby videos for a laugh and OMG they were lol by now youve guessed i mkind of strange and wierd and i will tell you something damm right i am! hehehehe anyway, quite few convosations on msn so must go, laters then x x.