Life in Middle Girth

Mood: Annoyed
Listening to: Cricket: Aus vs SA

Saturday 10.43pm

I'm sorry that I seem to moan a lot here, but its one place I can let rip and get things out of my system a bit.

 

On Monday, Small turns 6. I have to work, the birthday party is at 3pm so after tea tonight I set to and baked a birthday cake. A big square chocolate one, to be turned into SpongeBob Squarepants tomorrow with some inspiration from books, kids and several lots of different coloured icing... It smelt delicious, rose a bit in the centre so I left it upside down on the cooling rack to, er, cool - and the bloody bitching thing has broken into three pieces. This is my NEVER FAIL BIG CHOCOLATE CAKE SUITABLE FOR TURNING INTO ALL SORTS OF SHAPES recipe and I am friggin gutted. Guess I'll do another one tomorrow cos I ain't doing it at this hour of the night.

 

There, I feel a little better now.

 

Dyed my hair this morning, and gave Small a racing stripe as well. I'm "Intense Red" at the moment, just a tad darker than the last lot which was "Passionate Red" - (where's the passion then? from Himself) - Fire engine red could also apply, yep I know most people do this sort of thing in their teens, but I've always been behind the times, or a late developer or something! Maybe its me midlife crisis. But it's quite fun too! I have always dug my toes in and embraced my grey quite fondly but the family hates it, so a couple of months ago I gave in and put some colour in - electric blue stripes. Unfortunately they didn't take very well and hardly anybody noticed. Those that did thought I was making a political statement cos my timing was lousy and it coincided with our general election. Pure coincidence, I assured them. But oh how I hate regrowth. Still, this lot should see me right till after the Christmas holidays. Maybe I'll get it super short next, or go Goth black or.....

 

Himself took me over to Palmerston North to do some Christmas shopping today, shock horror! Truth is, he wants to go fishing tomorrow and is clocking up Brownie points. We seemed to spend lots of hours and dollars without much to show for it which isn't very encouraging; no, on second thoughts we did ok. Got his Mum sorted, Mike's birthday sorted, Pip's birthday sorted, sister in law sorted, one nephew, great niece finished (I think), know what is for Greg but can't find one, yeah, we're doing pretty well all things considered. More shock horror, he wants to buy me jewellery for my Christmas and/or birthday!!!!!!!!! Now that's unheard of. [Furrows brow and begins to wonder what he's up to]

 

Raining cats and dogs again but hot and muggy. It's been the same all week - fine in the morning then thunder, lightning and heavy rain in the afternoon. All week! Most unusual for these parts. The big boys are supposed to be doing a raft race down the Oroua River tomorrow but judging from how muddy and high it was this afternoon before this latest lot of rain, I would expect it to be cancelled. Hope so anyway (so I can stay home and make another cake).

 

Did I mention The New Car???? OHHHHHHH its luverly! This from me who has always defended our old five hundred dollar Mazda 626 - we've bought a Ford Mondeo Zetech, well, we bought half and the bank bought half - and it's gorgeous! Red, bright red - seems to be my colour at the moment. Sadly it cannot go in the garage as the garage is stuffed with Pip's worldly possessions until she goes back to PN next year, which is annoying when it is raining because one gets wet (internal access garaging is the best thing about this house I reckon).

 

Enough rambling.

Must burn or shred that thing before long, otherwise it could be misinterpreted. Lol, thought I'd lost it but no, just the Alzheimers at work again. Don't mind my cryptic little comments, they're  quite logical to me, well, as I write they are, I'll probably forget what I mean later on - but it's just a form of release. Haven't been writing anywhere lately but I need to.

 

Oh sod the blimmin cake, I could have done without that wee disaster. Hooray we'll have it for morning tea tomorrow I guess.

Crumbs.

Jaybee

 

Mood: Wearily placid
Listening to: Computer hum

Thursday/Friday 1.09 am

 

Have been to our older two sons' school prizegiving tonight. I call it my annual culture fix because they go to a large boys' college steeped in tradition and the opening thing is the eighty plus  begowned staff filing into the auditorium behind a Pipe Band, then the Kapa Haka group on stage begins a haka which is soon taken up by the entire school, all 1300 of them. I defy anybody not to be moved by these sights and sounds. I love it. Makes up for hard seats. No, they didn't get a prize, competition is pretty stiff and even though the year 11 lad is in the accelerate class, to get a first is pretty damned difficult. (And mostly achieved by Asians. No disrespect, just shows who does the academic hard yards in and outside school time.) And in the sports arena, with many regional, national and international representations, winning the local secondary schools squash tournament doesn't cut the mustard I'm afraid.

There were several musical items in between presentations, ranging from a choir singing archipelago (sp) ((that could be a coral atoll in the sea somewhere, might have the wrong word)), to jazz, to chamber music... to the school singing  "Gaudeamus Igatur"

 

Uh oh, interruption. Normal service will be resumed.....? Later sometime.

 

See ya

Mood: Slightly, you know....
Listening to: The news on TV. Small playing. Lawnmowers buzzing.

Wednesday, December 7 6.25 pm

 

(small voice here)

Hi, I think I'm back again....

 

There has been an awfully long gap since I was here last, lots has happened e.g. the trip to Fiji (and being Mother-in-Lawed whilst away), work becoming semi-fulltime, the daughter moving home, buying a new car, cutting down on happy pills, (beginning to admit there could be an alcohol problem), another outbreak of something on my R boob, postponing the Big Walk.....

 

I just want to say that I think I'm coming back - I certainly need to kick my own ass and get organised in a number of areas eg eating, exercising, drinking, sleep, spending, bookkeeping, housekeeping...

 

I wish there was a device I could get implanted in my brain so that my thought waves could be recorded either in written or visual form for later retreival; there are so often thoughts and ideas flitting through my mind that are GOOD but by the time I get back to them they've gone.  I have begun yet another book but am not really disciplined enough to use it when the inspiration is in full flow. Grr.

 

Anyway, hi to any and all who are aware of me in any way, shape or form. Please leave a note in my guest book thingie.

XX jaybee