State of Confusion
This is way past asking - who,what when,where or why. Oh if if it could be that simple. Here I sit. It's Friday morning, August 11th. of 2005. I want something but I don't know what. In one week it will be my youngest sons 29th birthday. In one way it dosen't seem that long ago. Yet in other ways it seems centuries and centuries ago. This dam cough is pissing me off. It just sneeks up on me at will. It's will. I'm hungery but then again not hungry. I just finished the leftover sandwich and frys from last night. Dam - I wish I could say what it is that I want. My headache is pulsating harder and harder. I would take something for it - if I thought it would go away. Ha. It would take at least a hour or two to calm it down - then in another one to two hours it will be back as strong as ever. What's the use? What do I want to do? Now my ankles are hurting? It's 13 days till my next Dr.s appointment. They've taken a lot of tests. I'm positive that there will be an answer - a way out- a way out of all this confusion. If I could only get organized. Put some order in this life. I'm so jelous of my WCL_IN weight loss buddies . They talk of this plan or that one as to what their eating or the exercise their doing. I can thing of what I'd like to do . Then in the next 2 seconds the thought is gone.I've played Pogo ( poppit) longer than I want. Just setting here is becomming terrably uncomfotrable. God - I wish I knew what to do. There are strange poping noises going on in the hall way. Wonder what that is? What do I want to do?
