Weblog of Nadine

The Kingdom of Heaven.

In todays DISIPLE II Bible study, we studied about God's Kingdom. This is what I learned.

Matthew 13: 44-50   -  18: 23-35  -  20: 1-16

God's kingdom is like a hidden treasure far more valuable than the finest pearls ever.It is so desirable to me that I would be willing to give up EVERYTHING - and I mean - EVERYTHING  to be given permission to enter.

To reside there some day is the GOAL to end all Goals.

Knowing that I'm not now, never had been or never will be totaly deserving to ever step one toe over the threshold of so fine a place, yet will be given permission to enter, totaly on the unconditional love, mercy, and forgiveness of God himself, is mind bogeling. Yet, to follow his lead. To do His  will  - to gain entrence - will be my goal.

 And I will rejoice in the fact that regardless if  I am the very first in line or in the middle or at the very end, that everyone in that line, that enters - will gain enterence - all for the same price.  GOD'S GRACE ! 

Robert H. Shuller, author and clergyman. With my own comments added.

Are you disappointed, discouraged and discontented with your present level of success?        Yes it's just another BLA...BLA...BLA...Day. 

Are you secretly dissatisfied with your present status?            I've seem to hit the brick wall of all walls. 

Do you want to become a better and more beautiful person than you are today?              Slimmer - trimmer and healthier -you bet!

Would you like to be able to really learn  how to be proud of yourself and still not lose genuine humility?         Anything - anything ...PLEASE !

Then start dreaming!        DREAMING..?

It's possible!         REALLY..?

You can become the person you have always wanted to be.        Look out world hear I come.

Or otherwiise - It's true you CAN'T teach an old dog new tricks. I've been trying to up load some my drawings and or photos.

Either I'm just not getting it or the computer is smart enough to know if you could see the " ugly old photo" I do mean old and ugly - ha ha - that you'r computer screen would instantely melt.  

So in you're best intrest and to keep every one bloging happy - you'll have to take my word for it and know that for the age of 60 - I'm extreamly beautiful.

Mood: Pissed !!!

I'm crossing my fingers. I think I'm back on the right tract. Last nights meeting did not go as I had orignaly planned, but it did go well.  

I always have this ( anxioty) dull throbing headake after a good meeting.  It lasts usualy an hour or two.  15 to 16 hours ( after last night) my head is still throbbing. 

The only way to go ....now is UP!

Every thing is so.........upside down at the moment.I'm just    rolling all over this site trying to figure what to do next?

Mood: Bored and lonely
Listening to: The anoying high pitched squeel in my ears.

FYI - BF & GF - IMO - I'M - ZZZ - MYSELF TO DEATH.

I FEEL SO :-I TO EVERYTHING  AT THIS TIME.

I'VE GOT MY USUAL @:-( 24/7/365.

HELP! I'M :-\ IS THERE ANYONE WHO'S NOT :-&  - IRL WILLING  TO CHAT OR SOMETHING? 

BFN - TC - THX.Nadine

Did you ever wonder why we center our celebration of Presidents Day on  only one or two of the past presidents?  As of the moment there have been 42 presidents elected. 43  people  served.  Gerald Ford took over after Nixon resigned.

I can remember the presidents back to Dwight D. Eisenhower. Yes I know that date's me. Actualy Roosevelt and Truman  both served in my life time - but in those days  I was still a very uninformed child.

Of all the presidents that served in your life time or with in the range of your memory - which one did you feel did the best job?

Who did the worst?

Comments welcome on this subject. I'll reveal my answers - if you will?

Some where in the world there is a celebration - every day.

It's interesting what a person can find out - when looking for such information.I went to a site called "Earth Calander" to see where and what holidays were being celebrated today. I found " Great Prayer Festival ( Monlam ) in Tibet.

I wanted to learn more.......I learned that this all began in 1409  ( 596 years ago )with Tsong Khapa saying prayers to - Shakyamuni -

 .......That Shakamuni is another name for Buddha who lived 2,500 years ago.That the religion of Buddhism  in general is the search for the meaning of human suffering and how to resolve it. Which is what Buddha was searching for 2,500 years ago.

It's about Metaphysisics? The awareness - to being tuned into our own wave legenth? That being in tune with these thoughts and feelings - everything is and will be ok, because we attracted these thoughts and feelings to ourselves in the first place?

As  Christian - Methodist - I question if these thoughts and feelings are not comming to us through our maker - GOD - who continues to care and guide us.

Would it not be possable to receve His guidence through many avenues - directed toward  different people and different cultures?

30 days and counting untill Spring arrives. I can hardly wait. Just think we can just pick up and go with out grabing a jacket or a coat.

We can pack away all these heavy clothes that make us look 50 to 100 pounds more than we are.

QUOTE.... When I look into the future, its so bright it burns my eyes.......Oprah Winfrey 

Mood: Not ....Good ! ! ! !
Listening to: The thump thump thump thump in my head.

 Forget the bottle......just give me a whole case full - and I'd still bet you that it wouldn't deaden THIS headache.

 I just finished typing a long list of names and addresses for my husbands  FOP. Lodge.   Please please  people when you fill out a form - please please please PRINT THE INFORMATION!   You just wouldent believe some of the jumbled letters and numbers Ive just seen.  Seeing double would even be a relief - I think I'm seeing quaddripple at the moment.

Then to top it off the phone rings.  We have "Privacy Manager " for a reason.  So.....I answer. 

 I hear  Privacy Manager......press # 1 to continue......

I press # 1 and wait to hear the name of the person calling.......

Then it says ......."NOW CONNECTING" 

I hung up.  If you can not tell me who is calling  - you are not worth me waiting for you to connect.

Besides I've still got this  .......BIG   HEADACHE !

Ban Birthdays? I'm divided on that thought. I love the attention I get - don't mind the climbing numbers. I guess it's not my birthdays that bother me - it's my childrens birthdays.  Today's my oldest  child's birthday. 

Hum.....Where was I 36 years ago today?  Did I realy say 36?  Ouch! both then and now.  It was a cold cold day in Chicago.  My then husband was in the hospital ( with jandus) no help to me.  My mother was about 200 to 300 miles away from me - in another state and  it took her about 3 to 4 hours to drive into Chicago and be with me.

Which - to me felt like forever and ever. Lucky me that this child was as stubborn and obstinate then as he is now because he at least waited  for her to arrive before he did.

Oh well I can't ever say it hase'nt been an adventure - or pleasure. He's still a good son who comes to fix  my cars when ever they break down.

What a difference a day makes. Sometimes not even a whole day's mood will stay the same.  Everything can be just fine and ...BAM!...the tinest thing can so change your mood. 

I guess I 'm much too independant in the way I look at things. As long as the car is running, as long as I can get my self somewhere on my time schedual - everything is fine.   I hate having to depend on others.  That's not me.

  I'm the one to supply the needs. That's what I need to feel good. If I can make you a success than I'm happy BAM.... The old reliable car decided to act up and cause a few problems.

Never mind that it's nearly 20 years old and  half rusted out. It just should not break down and cause me to have to call others to help me.It causes momentarely lapses in good moods.

Oh well.....that was yesterday and today is today.

 Dream big and dare to fail - Norman D. Vaughan - Explorer

I  say dream offten and dream big.  It's like catching a ride  on a big  shiney red balloon.   Where's the red balloon taking you?

Did you ever tell your self - I'm not going there? I won't get caught wallering in the negatives? Only to find yourself knee deep and sinking fast?

It's interesting how a conversation can get started and you know it's headed for the dumper.  Yet you tell yourself  - this time it will be different.  This time I won't let them  and their negitive words and thoughts pull me under!  

 There you are happly chug chuging along the tracks enjoying the conversation - thinking this is going well - then  BAM  -  the next thing you know is that the train has jumped the tracks and you're pined under all the mess - wondering - how did I get here?

Dear dear hubby caught me again.  His 18 century attitude - steam engine has just hit the same bump in the tracts for the umteenth time and I fell for it all over again.

Thanks for the comment Short and sweet. To some I may appear to be super religious and to others not at all.  Thanks for your vote of confidence  on being strong. This is where I lose it.  As I had come to know what Lent was all about - it was explained as a period of time that you give up something - in repentance to God.  Mostly observed bu the Catholics. (NOTE to CATHOLICS  - please set this Methodist straight - if I have it wrong ) Which I always thought strange because they'd go back to it after Easter. Descovering that I'm dyslexic and maybe even A.D.D. Attention Defficet Disorder. ( I hate spelling) I don't stick to one subject for 40 minutes let alone 40 days. So on to the soul searching:

Who  am I -  Just another human being

What am I - struggling to understand this world

When do I - Sadly like the rest of you - only when it's convenient.

Where am I -  In a fog - trying to fight my way out.

Tis the season of Lent. For the next 40 days + or -( does not include weekends or Sundays )  We venture on a Soul Searching mission of repentance and reflection. It is a time to take stock.

 In reference to my last post - The Lords Prayer. This prayer was given as an excample. If you know of no other way to pray - use this.

I'd like to explore how  I- we - could personalise this excample and bring about a deeper relationship between - Father and I.

In prayer - the excample requests us to - ADDRESS GOD - SUBMIT TO HIM AND HIS WILL - TO ASK FOR OUR PHYSICAL NEEDS - TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS - TO OFFER FORGIVENESS - TO ASK FOR HELP AGAINST TEMPTATION - TO PRESERVE US FROM EVIL.

In using this format - I ask - Dearest Father in Heaven, today I ask of you,to grant to me according to what you have - planed for my best interests - to preserve my life - my health - my mission ( your mission) to your glory. Guide me - walk with me even give me - if needed - a shove in the right direction toward finding the right doctors and medications - to live this life to your glory. I ask - again - and again - Dear Lord, your forgiveness for the frustrated anger that I project towards Tom. Lead me and guide me to be a more loving and helpful wife to him. Help me Dear Lord to be able to look past - and to forgive his moments of anger and frustrations. I'm aware that this world holds both good and evil. That we can not eliminate one with out the other. I pray Dear Jesus in your name that you will always light my path - so I will continue to see the diference. 

To you dear Bloging buddies - It has been said that where two or more are gatthered in prayer - praying for the same concern - that  it will be heard and granted.  Althow we may not know one another  - I ask  for your prayers for my quest for better health ( as I will be asking for you ) and that together we all  find what we are searching for in these next 40 days.  

PEACE - Nadine

Our Father in heaven   Father in Heaven

hallowed be thy name.   Reveal who you are

Your  Kingdom come     Set the world right

Your will be done.      Do what's best

On Earth as in Heaven.  As above, so below

Give us this day out daily bread  Keep us alive

Forgive us our debts     with 3 square meals

as we also have forgeven our debtors.  Keep us

and lead us not into temptation.  forgiven with

but deliver us from the evil one.   you and

 for thine is the Kingdom and    forgiving  others

   the Glory forever      keep us safe from our

    Amen                   selves and the Devil.

                            You are in charge!  You

                            can do anything you

                             want!  You're ablaze in

                             Beauty. Yes -yes -yes

Which  set of words - work best for you? Does it realy make a difference?