*Like It or Not...This Is Me*

Jun 5, 2008 at 00:40 o\clock

WOW...over a year since last post...

Yes it has been over a year since last post...I guess I got lost in myspace and msn messenger lol.  There have been many changes since last I wrote.  I am no longer with the hubby and have met a wonderful man named Joe.  The problem is, is that he lives in VA.  So the distance is hard.  Ilove this man so much.  He is kind caring and so adorable. 
 
Well, I see this site is still buggy, it changed my font and size like it always used to, oh well I will deal with it I guess.  
 
The kids are great.  My son will graduate(fingers crossed) at the end of next year and my daughter will be a sophmoreI feel so old.  lol  Damn this site is buggy and I am in no mood to keep correcting this...grrr.
 
Well I hope this finds some of you well and others on their way well...I have miss all of you very much!
 
J. 
  

Jun 1, 2007 at 16:38 o\clock

I know it has been a while...

Mood: Tired
Listening to: Watching...Over The Hedge(nephew is here)

Yes, I know it has been a very long time since I posted.  I am usually at MySpace. 

Not much new here.  I had surgery last week.  They removed a cyst from my left ovary and also a large amount of adhesions from my hysterectomy incision.  Now I have an infection at one of the incision sites and have to go in and have that looked at...great more meds.  I don't mind the pain killers though and I do need more as the pain is awful from the incision site.

The kiddos are out of school for a little bit.  My son is taking summer school at the beginning of  next month which is next week.  My daughter is also taking summer school but not till the end of June. 

Still watch the nephew.  Which is getting old and long!  Not that I don't love the bugger but damn, I need a break.  My sister is taking a vacation in July so I guess I am on vacation as well.

Hubby is doing much better with everything and I am almost happpy...this is going to take a long time to recover from you know!

I am reading a new book and highly recommend it to you all...it is called:  GOD Is Not Great...How Religion Poisons Everything...by Christopher Hitchens...very good book!

The weather has pretty much sucked the last week...rain and nothing but rain...I AM SICK OF IT!  I like the rain but not day after day after day of it!  Turned the heat on yesterday it was so flippin' cold!

Planted most of the flowers I bought.  It has been raining too much to go out and do the rest.  I bought this huge rosemary plant and the smell is so awesome!  Bought 4 oregano plants yesterday so now I have to go get a big huge pot for them to plant them in.  I just need flat leaf parsley plants and I think the herbs I want are done...nope I want basil as well and maybe sage...they are hard to find as big plants here and little ones will not do for me!

Well, now you know what I have been up to and it isn't all that much but I hope all are well and stay well...

J.

Jan 16, 2007 at 00:50 o\clock

Well...what else can I do?

Mood: tired
Listening to: Spongebob Squarepants(nephew sleeping over)

So, I am here writing after a little over a month.  I try to be online and write, but the depression is so aweful.  Thanks TCHOCK!!!  Love you too!  If you all would like to know my name and whatever at myspace just give a holla!  Well, my name is winterweather on there so that is that.  I don't blog on there often either butI have some friends I check in on now and again.  I must tell you though that you have to be my friend as I have my status set to private.

Nothing new here.  Hubby and I have decided to work on things.  At this time it is mostly me.  I find myself blaming ME for the crap he did and I do know it is not my fault!  He had the wandering eye and chose to throw it away. 

Found out that the house is paid off by my mom brfore she died and now we are just waiting for the title to change over to me...yes me!  Not hubby as my mom left it to ME in her will.  I will be getting a signifigant amount of cash from her investments.  It will go into my savings account as well.  The one he does not know about...shhhh...lol 

My kids have been great through all of this.  Oh get this...my bitch mother in law called the other day to see how we were and I told her fine for now.  She told me that she wishes I had never told her about it but...if I ever needed to talk she would be there.  This coming from the same person who told hubby to divorce me years back and in front of my daughter no less.  I just say yeah whatever. 

I think the temperature got to -20 F today...yes that is 20 degrees below 0 .  I have had the cars plugged in all the time.  OMG...I was such a nutter the other day!  I forgot to unplug the cord and ended up taking it with me and losing it a few miles away from home so I had to go buy a new one.  I do that at least once a year so it is nothing new for me...hee hee.

This Saturday is the QCI banquet at hubbys' work.  Haven't said whether or not I will attend.  There are a couple of girls there with their hubbys' that are cool to talk with but I feel so stupid being left there by hubby when he is hobknobbing.  I don't know yet!

This Thursday I go to the dentist to get my teeth laser whitened.  I know such a waste huh?  I don't think so.  I have tried the toothpastes and mouth rinses for whiteneing but haven't got the results I would like.  So I get to it there for 2 hours with my mouth open.

Then Friday I get my nails done and maybe my hair hi and low- lighted.  So excited. 

So I have finally updated and there it is.  Thank you to all who cared enough to comment...I appreciate it alot.  TCHOCK...do not go back to him...you are sweet and don't need that crap!!!

Take Care Those Who Do and Those Who Don't...

J.

Dec 4, 2006 at 07:16 o\clock

People are shit and there it is!

Ok, so things are really shitty right about now.  I went to darts with my cheating husband as I so way needed a break from shit...yeah I know with him, but I have no friends of my own.  Anyways, I left early, there was this guy there who said some crappy things to me and it was so hurtful, I left!  I mean really bad stuff.  He does not know me nor have we ever met before.  I came home and did the naughty thing and pretty bad too.  I am still bleeding.  I am crying my eyes out right now.  I thought this kind of shit was done with in high school.  Nope I guess not.  It was so hurtful and not needed.  I am under so much stress right now that anything will make me go insane.  This did.  I am so close to just being done with everything right now it isn't even worth mentioning.  I feel so alone and unloved.  Hubby is back on his way home but that does not matter to me, he is a cheating asshole who doesn't care.  He says he wants to be with me but that is hard to believe since he cheated on me three times with the same person.  I should really tell all the shit that goes on here.  No hubby does not beat or say mean things to me ever. But to be ignored is just as bad, to know you are not even acknowledged is awful...yeah poor me huh?  Well until you go through it you will never know!  This is my only outlet right now and I feel bad that some of you have to read this, but it is helping me, to write and vent.  I have no one else in my life to help me...Goddess...HELP! 

Nov 24, 2006 at 07:57 o\clock

What a Shit week for me...

As you all know by now my husband of 15 years wasted my life.  I have found out so much this past week about his little indiscretion or lack there of.  The one time he told me has now turned into three(sam chick)oh I mean slut!).  And it was during and AFTER my mother was sick and died.  How flippin' tacky and disgusting.  I went to the doctor last night and have now been tested for HIV and other little STDs'.  I now have to be tested every 6 months for 3 years to make sure I have nothing.  Isn't that just great?  If I do have something, his ass and hers are so way being taken to court.  I found out there is a law that if she knew he was married and she did...I can sue her ass as well.  I can get child support and alimony since I didn't work throughout the marriage and he has to provide me with the way of life I am accustomed to.  But as of yet I do not know what to do, I am needing professional help now so that is my main goal for Monday.  Oh, conveniently(SP?) he is up at his mothers' today and tomorrow for a funeral.  How much you wanna wager he is going to see her too?  She lives up there in that area he is at!  I tried to find her address online but it is unlisted, damn I so way wanted to send her some ads in the magazines to order shit. lol  I am evil like that you know!  She should suffer as much as HUBBY DOES!  We had Thanksgiving at my sisters and w/o him there.  So nice!  I made the turkey and cheezy potatoes and homemade pumpkin pies.  Sis made the mashed taters and veggies.  It was great.  I even was able to have wine with dinner.  I found out on a cooking show that they make organic wine without sulfites in it.  See, I am allergic to sulfa, etc...So for once I was able to enjoy wine(four glasses BTW) and I didn't get all red and sweaty and hard to breathe. YAY, I can enjoy wine again!  Since I have bored you all long enough I will let you go!

!!HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

J.