school
no no i don't want to talk about school, scrath the title...
Guess I'll talk about school anyways...
I really want to get into the Masters program at U of T. What can I do besides get good grades? I dunno but I'm really scared.. I thinkI'll bawl my eyes out if I have to stay in this shithole town any longer. Many rural areas have it's charm but Kingston is F***ing ugly and I wish I could hurt it's feelings with that comment but it's a city ( smallllllll diiiiirrrrrrrty city).
Damn you Kingston!
I want to go hooooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmeeee
The only downside is that if I went home, Mani couldn't visit me as I will be living with my parents. I feel awful thinking that that might be the case and we'd see less of each other but I REALLY need to go home. I think Mani and I will be ok but I really need to follow this path right now.
Mani has been thinking about joining the Belgian Paras... my bf wants to jump out of planes.. even though he has vertigo... I will never ever ever understand boys. Secretly, I wish he were coming to Toronto to resume his studies but not in anything his father wanted him to do ( law) but in what he's interested in... criminology, science, computer science or history. Computer science would probably be the fastest route to a job, good money, and paying off debts but I really want him to do what he wants to do... even if its'.... sigh.. enlisting.
How can I ask him to give something up if I am unwilling to give up my ambitions? I want to, but I just can't. He thinks my struggles are cute... wanting him to fail the physical but not wanting him to live alife of regret... but I THINK MY STRUGGLES SUCK ASS!
It's not just that I'm missing Mani so much. I'm extremely miserable here.. all my friend are all gone away and working now, except Julia but I rarely get to see her cuz she's always with her bf and she lives so far from me. It's just a lonely, tough existence... I need to go to the city where I can forget all my worries by surrounding myslef with glitz, city lights, 24 hour places ( THERE IS NOTHING 24 HOURS IN KINGSTON AND THE GLOOM IS MORE DEPRESSING THAN I CAN BARE!)
Plus for the program I wish to enroll in, Toronto's reputation is just so much more superior to that of Queen's. Queen's is good for business. Period.
I wish people knew what a bullshit school this was.. the certainly doesn't live up to the reputation it has. I see right through it. It sucks so bad.
hmmm...
what else can we talk about
Oh yes... I've been reading up on how to be able to focus on a task for long periods of time. I know it seems so trivial but I find I struggle with that and end up working double the amount of hours anyone else would work... does anyone have any suggestions?
Anyhoo I better get back to work.. too much to do.
wish me luck!
tchocky
where-am-I-going-with-my-life?
Guess I'll talk about school anyways...
I really want to get into the Masters program at U of T. What can I do besides get good grades? I dunno but I'm really scared.. I thinkI'll bawl my eyes out if I have to stay in this shithole town any longer. Many rural areas have it's charm but Kingston is F***ing ugly and I wish I could hurt it's feelings with that comment but it's a city ( smallllllll diiiiirrrrrrrty city).
Damn you Kingston!
I want to go hooooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmeeee
The only downside is that if I went home, Mani couldn't visit me as I will be living with my parents. I feel awful thinking that that might be the case and we'd see less of each other but I REALLY need to go home. I think Mani and I will be ok but I really need to follow this path right now.
Mani has been thinking about joining the Belgian Paras... my bf wants to jump out of planes.. even though he has vertigo... I will never ever ever understand boys. Secretly, I wish he were coming to Toronto to resume his studies but not in anything his father wanted him to do ( law) but in what he's interested in... criminology, science, computer science or history. Computer science would probably be the fastest route to a job, good money, and paying off debts but I really want him to do what he wants to do... even if its'.... sigh.. enlisting.
How can I ask him to give something up if I am unwilling to give up my ambitions? I want to, but I just can't. He thinks my struggles are cute... wanting him to fail the physical but not wanting him to live alife of regret... but I THINK MY STRUGGLES SUCK ASS!
It's not just that I'm missing Mani so much. I'm extremely miserable here.. all my friend are all gone away and working now, except Julia but I rarely get to see her cuz she's always with her bf and she lives so far from me. It's just a lonely, tough existence... I need to go to the city where I can forget all my worries by surrounding myslef with glitz, city lights, 24 hour places ( THERE IS NOTHING 24 HOURS IN KINGSTON AND THE GLOOM IS MORE DEPRESSING THAN I CAN BARE!)
Plus for the program I wish to enroll in, Toronto's reputation is just so much more superior to that of Queen's. Queen's is good for business. Period.
I wish people knew what a bullshit school this was.. the certainly doesn't live up to the reputation it has. I see right through it. It sucks so bad.
hmmm...
what else can we talk about
Oh yes... I've been reading up on how to be able to focus on a task for long periods of time. I know it seems so trivial but I find I struggle with that and end up working double the amount of hours anyone else would work... does anyone have any suggestions?
Anyhoo I better get back to work.. too much to do.
wish me luck!
tchocky
where-am-I-going-with-my-life?
:P
good luck on exams and papers and whatever else you have...