Yesterday I woke up sucking a lemon

hardcore studying today is all that is up!

This mornign mani sent me pictures of the tickets to Rock en Seine! he got them in the mail today!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
i need to start bringing in the cash flow to pay him for my ticket!

My sister is leaving tomorrow morning. :(
Her bf was here last night ( andrew he is such a cutie! i love him and wish my sister will marry him someday!)

ANYWAYS!
He was so sad and was hugging all of us as if it were the last time he'd ever see us ( my sister is such a heartbreaker huh?)

They decided they would break up for a year while wendy was in korea ( I feel like it was more my sister's idea .. i think he mentioned trying long distance at one point)
But now he's in agreement and believes they have a better chance of getting back together and it working out than trying long distance and having it fizzle out... so you see.. in order to SAVE the relationship, they had to END it? get it?

I totally do.

Yesterday I was talking to my friend Jobo, she suggested I msg Aimee. I kinda really want to but I often get rebuffed and don't really see the point anymore. I kinda feel bad for Aimee. It's as if she'd rather let go of the friendship but then has to deal with it because of mutual friends. I dunno. I feel somewhat apprehensive.. I don't want to force a friendship on someone who, to me, clearly doesn't really want to invest the energy. She's happy when she's on good terms with a select few and it's kinda not as fun when u feel like ur work.

In any case, I think I should msg her this summer and ask how she's been.

AUGH. These GREs are the bane of my existence.. it's too close in terms of studying yet so far away in terms of being able to be freeee and go out! ugh.. studying.

As a single girl, I've decided to give up the game for a lil while. Dating I suppose is ok but relationships will have to relaaaax. No relationships.. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't have one during the time of my Masters ( 2 years!) I know! I want to focus on school...well atleast the first year..

BUUUUT. In the wake of this decision, I've decided that it's my mission to play cupid to some of my friends. There is a problem.. I have way more eligible girlfriends than I do guyfriends.
In fact, all of my single gfs are eligible, beautiful, smart, funny, kind. To match this up to an adequate boy is more than just a challenge.. it almost seems to be an impossibility! I went through the list of my gfs who HAVE bfs and realized that the only bf who I think is good enough for my gf is Wendy's current bf but soon to be ex-bf. I wonder, am I just biased and will I always think my gfs are too good for their men?

And! why is there such a short supply of adequate men out there? I mean.. I'm not even asking for them to exceed expectation.. but they don't even MEET expectation? AND IF I SHOULD EVER FIND MEN who meet expectation, chances are my gfs simply won't be attracted to them!

Maybe I should just turn in my bow and arrow right now...

No, I'm on a mission. I'm going to try my best to get my two friends in particular, Lisa and Jobo, out on the town to meet boys. They are way overdue for hot boys teeming with cash... hehe. .joking. A NICE boy would be a start for one. dammit. THEY ARE REALLY PRETTY! AND SMART! I think boys are intimidated. Well for sure by Jobo because you don't know whether she's giving you an exotic hawaiin-far-away face or the bitch-face-i'm-too-good-for-you face. Kinda like...posh spice.. only she's not exoticy looking.
And Lisa.. HER DAMN STANDARDS ARE TOO DAMN LOW. I think it stems from how badly her father treats her mom.. he's a real asshole and I hate him. But more often than not, girls kinda fall into their mother's roles.. I'm deseperately trying to fight mine off.. I don't want to devote my entire life to my husband and children like my mother ( AND I MEAN ENTIRE! like hobbies include driving matty to soccer and other stuff). I guess that's why I have commitment aversion.

I guess I'm rambling. AH.. it's good to be back though.. I love seeing my Toronto friends again ( well I have yet to really hang out) but yes.. effort.. this summer it's all about friendships and effort.

Talk later
tchocky
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