bored..
I wish I could just travel on a star and go round and round and round.
I dunno what it is but when I think about the world and how big it is
and how small I am, I get really reflective and a little blue.
Tonight, I HAD to get out of my house.. I made poor Lisa who was SO TIRED from me draggin her out yesterday and working all day today come drink bubble tea with me and my brother today. Then I took Matty to get Wendy's (spicy chicken burger combo) and we walked home together.
As we were walking home in the dark ( had no car today) he pointed up at the brightest star in the sky and said, "nuna look!" (nuna is older sister in Korean.. but.. what a boy would say not a girl) and I was like.. make a wish matty! and he wished that all the children in the world would be safe tonight. oh.. that kid.. he just makes me melt.. I LOVE my brother.
I got a letter from Amish today..he's concerned about my fight with my mom.. he went to the French Open.. he says I'm going to LOVE paris..they must be having so much fun.. and I'm also following up on Radiohead's tour.. they had a concert in Montreal tonight.. they played one ofmy favourite songs " how to disappear completely" and thom dedicated it to the ppl in the balcony probably cuz he can't see them.
The World Cup games are bringing back memories of when I was in Korea for them.. it was so much fun.. and all of this worldly stuff is going on around me and I wish soooo much that I was travelling right now. I totally don't want to be here.. or if I am.. I atleast want to be doing something productive!
I think I have an interview next week.. or Kalvin says so anyways. ugh.. working for money.. whatta concept.
I still haven't heard back from this prof who seemed interested in supervising me.. should I email her again and ask her if she received my last email? I feel pushy.. but I need to know!!!
ugh.. so many stupid worries in my life and really, in the grand scope of things it's all nothing. That's why being an athlete or musician must be so great.. you have to focus EVERYTHING into one task.. nothing else is relevant and you don't have to think about anything else because you HAVE to perform.. and see the world and be marvelous.
I think I think too much.
tchocky
existentialist or psycho?
Tonight, I HAD to get out of my house.. I made poor Lisa who was SO TIRED from me draggin her out yesterday and working all day today come drink bubble tea with me and my brother today. Then I took Matty to get Wendy's (spicy chicken burger combo) and we walked home together.
As we were walking home in the dark ( had no car today) he pointed up at the brightest star in the sky and said, "nuna look!" (nuna is older sister in Korean.. but.. what a boy would say not a girl) and I was like.. make a wish matty! and he wished that all the children in the world would be safe tonight. oh.. that kid.. he just makes me melt.. I LOVE my brother.
I got a letter from Amish today..he's concerned about my fight with my mom.. he went to the French Open.. he says I'm going to LOVE paris..they must be having so much fun.. and I'm also following up on Radiohead's tour.. they had a concert in Montreal tonight.. they played one ofmy favourite songs " how to disappear completely" and thom dedicated it to the ppl in the balcony probably cuz he can't see them.
The World Cup games are bringing back memories of when I was in Korea for them.. it was so much fun.. and all of this worldly stuff is going on around me and I wish soooo much that I was travelling right now. I totally don't want to be here.. or if I am.. I atleast want to be doing something productive!
I think I have an interview next week.. or Kalvin says so anyways. ugh.. working for money.. whatta concept.
I still haven't heard back from this prof who seemed interested in supervising me.. should I email her again and ask her if she received my last email? I feel pushy.. but I need to know!!!
ugh.. so many stupid worries in my life and really, in the grand scope of things it's all nothing. That's why being an athlete or musician must be so great.. you have to focus EVERYTHING into one task.. nothing else is relevant and you don't have to think about anything else because you HAVE to perform.. and see the world and be marvelous.
I think I think too much.
tchocky
existentialist or psycho?
Your brother...wow. Im pushy so I\'d email her. *shrug* The squeaky wheel gets the oil, right? S\'what my grandpa always said and he worked at a university and hired people and fired people all the time.
I need to learn more from your brother...
love you sweetie. you\'re gonna do great things. I feel it in my bones.
xoxo
Shel