Stress makes me sad
Soooooo
I guess ur all wondering what I've been doing lately. Perhaps you haven't and if that is the case please excuse me for being so presumptuous :P
It's been a hectic start of a new semester, not unhappy about my first semester results but not absolutely pleased either but seriously, not bad at all.
I've been really stressed out about something. I'm really trying hard to get into a graduate program at U of T but there just seems to be too many things to consider not to mention that the program I'm applying to seems very competitive. I'm really stressed that I won't be able to go home. One of the main reasons I wanted to go home was to help my little brother in school and just to be around for him. He's confided in me that bullies pick on him in school and I think it hurts him a lot. He's such a kind-hearted kid, he is actually CONFUSED at why someone would get a kick out of tormenting someone. I know I'm supposed to be the mature one but I've actually daydreamt about kicking this kid's ass... and he's only 13. Stupid punk.
I have to stop worrying and start DOING things. Like making contacts and improving even further in school. There is no way around it I suppose :(
When things like this get me down, instead of feeling stress ( well no, I'm definitely stressed probably getting white hairs and growing kidney stones) but the most prevalent feeling that remains after the hysteria is unbelievable sadness. Not just sadness because of self-doubt or a bleak outlook but the kind of sadness unrelated to events: being completely and utterly lonely. Not that I'm lacking in friends or not hanging out with them either so I don't really understand WHY I feel loneliness... couldn't the chemicals in my brain imbalance in a way to cause euphoria when hardships come my way instead? Damn those chemicals.
My boyfriend said to me, " hardships happen so that you can build character" This made me smile. He's so sweet.
Well, I hope you are all doing well. If ur feeling lonely, here's a hug from me :)
luv
tchocky
very-scared-about-the-future
I guess ur all wondering what I've been doing lately. Perhaps you haven't and if that is the case please excuse me for being so presumptuous :P
It's been a hectic start of a new semester, not unhappy about my first semester results but not absolutely pleased either but seriously, not bad at all.
I've been really stressed out about something. I'm really trying hard to get into a graduate program at U of T but there just seems to be too many things to consider not to mention that the program I'm applying to seems very competitive. I'm really stressed that I won't be able to go home. One of the main reasons I wanted to go home was to help my little brother in school and just to be around for him. He's confided in me that bullies pick on him in school and I think it hurts him a lot. He's such a kind-hearted kid, he is actually CONFUSED at why someone would get a kick out of tormenting someone. I know I'm supposed to be the mature one but I've actually daydreamt about kicking this kid's ass... and he's only 13. Stupid punk.
I have to stop worrying and start DOING things. Like making contacts and improving even further in school. There is no way around it I suppose :(
When things like this get me down, instead of feeling stress ( well no, I'm definitely stressed probably getting white hairs and growing kidney stones) but the most prevalent feeling that remains after the hysteria is unbelievable sadness. Not just sadness because of self-doubt or a bleak outlook but the kind of sadness unrelated to events: being completely and utterly lonely. Not that I'm lacking in friends or not hanging out with them either so I don't really understand WHY I feel loneliness... couldn't the chemicals in my brain imbalance in a way to cause euphoria when hardships come my way instead? Damn those chemicals.
My boyfriend said to me, " hardships happen so that you can build character" This made me smile. He's so sweet.
Well, I hope you are all doing well. If ur feeling lonely, here's a hug from me :)
luv
tchocky
very-scared-about-the-future
As for you lil bro, I definately think he should speak to one of his teacher. The school has the duty to make sure children are safe and protected from bullies. If they dont manage to protect him, then the school is responsible and you could take them to court....
Take care hun and don\'t forget...CHIN UP!!
*HUGS*