Seriously bummed
Well, I'm more bummed over the fact that Mani is gone than I thought I
would be. For goodness sake I thought I'd be jumping right into my
works by now. I hope Mani still has that job offered to him on the
table. He was offered a job as a translator for a business in Belgium
but declined so that he could come spend time with me and they said if
it was still available by the time he got back they would let him know.
I'd hate to think he missed that opportunity by coming here.
I don't like feeling sad. This totally sucks. I have this one friend Dustin t and as soon as Mani left, he msged me " Ok he's gone. You have to come out". But I felt like... man! Dustin! can't you be more sensitive?? I'm in the grieving process here! It really sucks to be away from your bf. He goes to bed while you're not finished ur day. All my remaining friends in Kingston live with my ex bf except Julia who happens to be on the opposite end of campus and whose bf hogs her all the time and dammit, I'm just stressed!
I just wish that Mani lived here and had a job HERE. I know that's so selfish but this JUST SUCKS! I won't see him on our one year, or Christmas, OR New Years! I really hope that Luc doesn't come down to Toronto for New Years because I want to have a girls night out with Julia and other people. But he probably will because it's New Years and who would Julia make out with at midnight?
I wish I were in Toronto. The big city where all my friends reside. I'd be bubble-teaing with Lisa regularly, going downtown to shop with Julia or Maria and driving Di around her jobs and eating late night WEndy's at her place. Sigh.. I miss the city. Stupid ugly Kingston.
School is stressing me out! How does one cope with the stress? How does one concentrate? Shell you have to teach me tips on how you have all this time to read EVERY SINGLE BLOG ON BLOGIGO and reply and write epic entries AND get 80% and above on all ur courses AND be the best granddaughter AND have a serious relationship AND go work out! PLEASE!!!!! TELL ME!!!
This is a shitty entry, I'm sorry.. I'm just venting I suppose.
OK how about some fun news! Yesterday my housemates Katlyn and Arwen when out on the town with 5 other friends. I had plans that night so I couldn't go but before I went, I plucked their eyebrows and did they're make up! OMG! I SWEAR! They looked like something on Vogue! They all said they coudln't recognize themselves and they just flattered me with all kinds of compliments about my erm...artistry!. They were kinda shocked to learn that I had dabbled in aesthetics since the age of 12. But I can honestly say I've changed many lives with my talents! Serious! Self esteems went through the roof ( some more extreme and annoying and cocky than others) and in that case I think to myself, " my god I created a monster" but most times it's quite rewarding and I think to myself, " I turned them into beautiful goddesses!!!!!" and I give myself a lil pat on the back :)
I always go home to do Erica's prom make up, WEndy's, my friends, make up for debutante balls etc etc. It's soooo much fun!!!
Yeah so that cheered me up TOTALLY. :D
hmmmm
Yeah so this week is going to be a lil hectic for me...and it sucks cuz when I talk to Mani, I can never tear myself away. This is the first time SINCE I WAS LIKE 13 that I felt so sad over a STUPID BOY! ech! THIS SUCKS!
Anyhoo, I better get going!
Talk laterz!
tchock
makeup-artist-for-the-aesthetianically-challenged
I don't like feeling sad. This totally sucks. I have this one friend Dustin t and as soon as Mani left, he msged me " Ok he's gone. You have to come out". But I felt like... man! Dustin! can't you be more sensitive?? I'm in the grieving process here! It really sucks to be away from your bf. He goes to bed while you're not finished ur day. All my remaining friends in Kingston live with my ex bf except Julia who happens to be on the opposite end of campus and whose bf hogs her all the time and dammit, I'm just stressed!
I just wish that Mani lived here and had a job HERE. I know that's so selfish but this JUST SUCKS! I won't see him on our one year, or Christmas, OR New Years! I really hope that Luc doesn't come down to Toronto for New Years because I want to have a girls night out with Julia and other people. But he probably will because it's New Years and who would Julia make out with at midnight?
I wish I were in Toronto. The big city where all my friends reside. I'd be bubble-teaing with Lisa regularly, going downtown to shop with Julia or Maria and driving Di around her jobs and eating late night WEndy's at her place. Sigh.. I miss the city. Stupid ugly Kingston.
School is stressing me out! How does one cope with the stress? How does one concentrate? Shell you have to teach me tips on how you have all this time to read EVERY SINGLE BLOG ON BLOGIGO and reply and write epic entries AND get 80% and above on all ur courses AND be the best granddaughter AND have a serious relationship AND go work out! PLEASE!!!!! TELL ME!!!
This is a shitty entry, I'm sorry.. I'm just venting I suppose.
OK how about some fun news! Yesterday my housemates Katlyn and Arwen when out on the town with 5 other friends. I had plans that night so I couldn't go but before I went, I plucked their eyebrows and did they're make up! OMG! I SWEAR! They looked like something on Vogue! They all said they coudln't recognize themselves and they just flattered me with all kinds of compliments about my erm...artistry!. They were kinda shocked to learn that I had dabbled in aesthetics since the age of 12. But I can honestly say I've changed many lives with my talents! Serious! Self esteems went through the roof ( some more extreme and annoying and cocky than others) and in that case I think to myself, " my god I created a monster" but most times it's quite rewarding and I think to myself, " I turned them into beautiful goddesses!!!!!" and I give myself a lil pat on the back :)
I always go home to do Erica's prom make up, WEndy's, my friends, make up for debutante balls etc etc. It's soooo much fun!!!
Yeah so that cheered me up TOTALLY. :D
hmmmm
Yeah so this week is going to be a lil hectic for me...and it sucks cuz when I talk to Mani, I can never tear myself away. This is the first time SINCE I WAS LIKE 13 that I felt so sad over a STUPID BOY! ech! THIS SUCKS!
Anyhoo, I better get going!
Talk laterz!
tchock
makeup-artist-for-the-aesthetianically-challenged
You\'re so in love. It\'s just pouring out of you. Mani is a very lucky guy. The fact that you miss him so much and can\'t get him off of your mind shows how deep in love with him you are. I hope he reads this and he sees what I see. You\'re such a sweetheart.
As far as me being able to juggle everything. Hrm, I literally schedule my time. I bought a student planner for eleven dollars at Walden Books. I schedule time for homework each day and I schedule my gym time. I then fill in the gaps with Steve and blogigo. I do have the weekends with Steve, though, that\'s the only up I have on you. =\\ There are a billion times that I feel the same way you\'re feeling. It\'ll get better, sweetie. Everything will fall into place. I promise. You\'ll get back in the routine of things and all will be well.
I really hope Mani gets that job as well. Also - what are you in school for? Do you have much schooling left? Do you plan to move when you graduate to be with Mani or is he going to move to be with you? Just some questions I was wondering about as I was reading this.
See, this epic comment only took me 3 minutes! I\'m also watching CSI as I\'m typin this! The laundry just buzzed so I\'ve got to go in there and get it. As far as the comment you left me - darlin don\'t worry about it. Don\'t feel sheepish! That was something I wrote last year in July when Cory first went to jail. He\'ll be home around or right after Thanksgiving of this year. It\'s been a rough year. =\\ You hang in there sweetheart! You can do this. I have faith in you. Just take you a bubble bath and relax. MAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF! You\'ll be surprised how stressfree you\'ll be when you actually say: ok, from this time to this time, it\'s MY time to do whatever I want to do. No homework, no studying, no reading - just me and whatever I want to do. Make it blogigo time, or bubble bath time, go for a walk, go to the gym - whatever. Just make sure you have time for yourself, darlin. That will help with the stress A LOT! I promise.
*hugs n luvins sweetie* Im here anytime you need me.
~ Shel
*grins*
Jackie