PULP
I love this band. I knew about Helpthe Aged but I didn'
t know they were around for so long.. since Great Expectations!!!
Anyhoo, I think it was in grade 7 8 or 9 I saw this movie and I thought Gweneth Paltrow was the most gorgeous woman in the whole world.. she's too good for Chris Martin, Brad Pitt, Luke Wilson.. lessee who else has she dated... I think Tate Donovan once...oh and Ben Affleck.. ok so her taste in men is atrocious.. of everyone there I think Luke Wilson is the only one that ok.. oh wait I like Tate Donovan too as an actor.. but the rest make me sick to my stomach.
Yesterday something happened that made me feel a little bad for being condescending and mean to the froshies when I work at the desk. I'm not usually, just to the idiots who pretend to be drunk and are so obnoxious.. I have a bad habit of seeming sarcastic. IN any case, these three froshies come down and they are "drunk" or something and they start yelling a chant that is like 2 minutes long and they are SCREAMING it into each others faces but I decided that it's too lame to give it any acknowledgement and went on reading my text book as if they weren't there.
Then they finished this dumb chant
Total silence.
Out of embarassment, one of them lets out a pathetic " whoo!"
I keep reading my book
They say BYE! and run out the door
I look up but they are gone by the time I try to reply.
Then they come back in and are so ANGRY at me for some reason and they come over and push a binder that's on the desk where they sign out equipment but the kid doesn't manage to push it off so it's just half off the edge and he turns around as if he managed to inflict major damage on me and storms off in a hurry and they mutter " dumb desk clerk!" I kinda feel bad they never managed to throw the binder off the desk.. that kinda defeated the whole purpose. But really what did they want me to do? Watch and be entertained by something I'd be so embarassed to be a part of?
It was really sad... I didn't know my acknowledgement of their idiotic fun meant so much to them( I say this in all honesty). And I know this because several minutes later they came by again and they said " hello" in the most sweetest voice imaginable.. like.. as if they were hoping I was human and not this cold-hearted robot across the desk. I looked up and said hi and smiled.. and I was thinking.. you kids are so weird, didn't you just try to knock over my stuff? I wonder what would have happened if I rolled my eyes and called them dumb. But I'm glad I didn't because after they walked by again and smiled and I could tell they felt a little less indignated because they had managed to befriend the monster across the desk.
This made me think a little.. how vulnerable people really are. Especially the ones that display their brutishness because of their insecurities... it seems no matter who you are and how obnoxious and stupid you seem, everyone is the same, and everyone wants to be acknowledged and loved. So although I acknowledge the fact that there is this underlying ackward insecurity beneath the actions of all the froshies....
I still can't stand them.
I seriously can't believe I ever was one.. someone MUST have felt the same about me.. and if you are reading this, i'm really sorry.
tchocky
need-a-new-job
t know they were around for so long.. since Great Expectations!!!
Anyhoo, I think it was in grade 7 8 or 9 I saw this movie and I thought Gweneth Paltrow was the most gorgeous woman in the whole world.. she's too good for Chris Martin, Brad Pitt, Luke Wilson.. lessee who else has she dated... I think Tate Donovan once...oh and Ben Affleck.. ok so her taste in men is atrocious.. of everyone there I think Luke Wilson is the only one that ok.. oh wait I like Tate Donovan too as an actor.. but the rest make me sick to my stomach.
Yesterday something happened that made me feel a little bad for being condescending and mean to the froshies when I work at the desk. I'm not usually, just to the idiots who pretend to be drunk and are so obnoxious.. I have a bad habit of seeming sarcastic. IN any case, these three froshies come down and they are "drunk" or something and they start yelling a chant that is like 2 minutes long and they are SCREAMING it into each others faces but I decided that it's too lame to give it any acknowledgement and went on reading my text book as if they weren't there.
Then they finished this dumb chant
Total silence.
Out of embarassment, one of them lets out a pathetic " whoo!"
I keep reading my book
They say BYE! and run out the door
I look up but they are gone by the time I try to reply.
Then they come back in and are so ANGRY at me for some reason and they come over and push a binder that's on the desk where they sign out equipment but the kid doesn't manage to push it off so it's just half off the edge and he turns around as if he managed to inflict major damage on me and storms off in a hurry and they mutter " dumb desk clerk!" I kinda feel bad they never managed to throw the binder off the desk.. that kinda defeated the whole purpose. But really what did they want me to do? Watch and be entertained by something I'd be so embarassed to be a part of?
It was really sad... I didn't know my acknowledgement of their idiotic fun meant so much to them( I say this in all honesty). And I know this because several minutes later they came by again and they said " hello" in the most sweetest voice imaginable.. like.. as if they were hoping I was human and not this cold-hearted robot across the desk. I looked up and said hi and smiled.. and I was thinking.. you kids are so weird, didn't you just try to knock over my stuff? I wonder what would have happened if I rolled my eyes and called them dumb. But I'm glad I didn't because after they walked by again and smiled and I could tell they felt a little less indignated because they had managed to befriend the monster across the desk.
This made me think a little.. how vulnerable people really are. Especially the ones that display their brutishness because of their insecurities... it seems no matter who you are and how obnoxious and stupid you seem, everyone is the same, and everyone wants to be acknowledged and loved. So although I acknowledge the fact that there is this underlying ackward insecurity beneath the actions of all the froshies....
I still can't stand them.
I seriously can't believe I ever was one.. someone MUST have felt the same about me.. and if you are reading this, i'm really sorry.
tchocky
need-a-new-job
Have a great rest of the weekend!!!
*grins*
Jackie
I think we all go through stupid stuff now and then. All for the need to be acknowleged.
Don\'t be sorry - if you felt it was worth posting it was well worth reading.