Another Year past
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So 30 mins ago I turned 24.. shit.. that's a big number.. almost at the halfway mark of the decade in which I have a licence to party and live recklessly.
Turning 24 is a somber experience. For the first time I DO feel different and it's frightening. For the first time I don't know what's next and it pisses me off!
My friend Julia mailed me to say she's not coming to the dinner thing tomorrow cuz of class which sucks cuz I haven't seen her in forever.. partly due to classes and partly due to her growing closeness with her bf who hogs her. I hope she can make it out for drinks.
I seriously don't even want to CELEBRATE my birthday.. i'm humouring my friends who are insisting. This totally sucks. Atleast my ex who is my friend will be there. I haven't hung out with him properly in awhile. I really wish Mani was coming out tonight to watch me get hammered and be there for me to hold back my hair when it all comes back up. ( actually no, I'll never puke)
Mostly I wish my friends in Toronto were going to be there. I missed Lisa this weekend at home because she went to a soca jam ( to which I was supposed to go.. wouldn't that have been a site, a tall asian chick at a fricking soca jam.. what a trip that would be for some) but this girl that I stopped beign friends with was going to be there and I just didn't want to have to deal with making fakeass conversations and pretending like I was interested in her life and asking her all kinds of insincere, lame questions. Especially since we didn't exactly end on a sweet note!
I think I need to get out of this low, so I'm going to dance and sing to 80s music ( I fricking love that decade).. it's brilliant.
I wish you could all be with me tomorrow. Now I have to look for an outfit to wear and my mom lost the suede shoes I was planning to bring back to wear so I have to adjust accordingly
I'll leave you with one of the best songs of the 80's but definitely one of the worst videos ever.. so save urself and don't waste ur time watching it:)
tchocky
So 30 mins ago I turned 24.. shit.. that's a big number.. almost at the halfway mark of the decade in which I have a licence to party and live recklessly.
Turning 24 is a somber experience. For the first time I DO feel different and it's frightening. For the first time I don't know what's next and it pisses me off!
My friend Julia mailed me to say she's not coming to the dinner thing tomorrow cuz of class which sucks cuz I haven't seen her in forever.. partly due to classes and partly due to her growing closeness with her bf who hogs her. I hope she can make it out for drinks.
I seriously don't even want to CELEBRATE my birthday.. i'm humouring my friends who are insisting. This totally sucks. Atleast my ex who is my friend will be there. I haven't hung out with him properly in awhile. I really wish Mani was coming out tonight to watch me get hammered and be there for me to hold back my hair when it all comes back up. ( actually no, I'll never puke)
Mostly I wish my friends in Toronto were going to be there. I missed Lisa this weekend at home because she went to a soca jam ( to which I was supposed to go.. wouldn't that have been a site, a tall asian chick at a fricking soca jam.. what a trip that would be for some) but this girl that I stopped beign friends with was going to be there and I just didn't want to have to deal with making fakeass conversations and pretending like I was interested in her life and asking her all kinds of insincere, lame questions. Especially since we didn't exactly end on a sweet note!
I think I need to get out of this low, so I'm going to dance and sing to 80s music ( I fricking love that decade).. it's brilliant.
I wish you could all be with me tomorrow. Now I have to look for an outfit to wear and my mom lost the suede shoes I was planning to bring back to wear so I have to adjust accordingly
I'll leave you with one of the best songs of the 80's but definitely one of the worst videos ever.. so save urself and don't waste ur time watching it:)
tchocky
Just wanted you to know that.
xoxo
Shel