Yesterday I woke up sucking a lemon

Nov 30, 2005 at 07:47 o\clock

Serious case of missing my baby

I know I had hung up by Madonna on awhile ago but I wanted to put up a video for my sweetie.

It's the Pussycat dolls... hahah.. their single before made me laugh and barf a little in my mouth " DON'TCHA"
but this is quite a cute song, save the gangsterish " I'M A STICK WIT U" sentence inserted to feign street cred.

You're all a bunch of privileged hot girls. Stop it!

*miss u*

Nov 30, 2005 at 05:07 o\clock


yeah I know, you love Madonna too

Today I didn't get to talk to Mani because.. I SLEPT THE ENTIRE DAY! the msn woke me up, the final blip blip blips were him writing

anyone got a spare winning lottery ticket? says:
hey babe
anyone got a spare winning lottery ticket? says:
 u there?
anyone got a spare winning lottery ticket? says:
i missed u...
anyone got a spare winning lottery ticket? says:
im going to bed now because its 1
anyone got a spare winning lottery ticket? says:
1.50 actualy
anyone got a spare winning lottery ticket? says:
i guess that i'll talk to you tomorow anyone got a spare winning lottery ticket? says:
love you loaaaaaaaaaads
anyone got a spare winning lottery ticket? says: MMMMMMMMMMMMWA!!!
anyone got a spare winning lottery ticket? says:

YARGH! i even SAW as his status changed to Offline! I feel so bad. Poor thing is jetlagging... hehe. I called him at like 8:30 in the morning for him today and he was funny cuz he was trying to make converssation with me even though he was half asleep.. nothing he said made sense... hehehe

I'm such a super brat

ummmm.... What else to sayyyyyy... tooooo much work to do this week.. i'm scurred people.. scurred.... ( scared but u know, how Nelly says it... it's gettin hot in hurrr)
wow.. this is why you shouldn't eat chocolate ice cream sprinkled with ferraro rochers that ur bf bought you... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Before I go, I wanted to give Mey a lot of hugs... I know she's going through a rough period in her life and I feel so impersonal giving her hugs over this blog and she probably has many more important things to straighten out before she starts blogging again but for what it's worth, I wanted to tell her that she's in my thoughts and that I hope she feels better soon.

Alright peops
I'm ouuuuuuuuuuuut

PS. Thx for the Christmas card Shelly :) ur such a doll

Nov 28, 2005 at 07:34 o\clock

HI everyone!

I hope everyone missed me :P. So Mani left this Friday, we bussed it from Kingston to Pearson airport and just lazed about at the airport all day and ate lunch and window shopped at the shops in the airport before he had to leave. That weekend, I got to go home and spend some time with my siblings.. it's like my sisters keep getting prettier and prettier everytime I see them. They are so sweet, I miss them so much and the little one just turned 18 but to me I swear, she's still 12... so cute! I got to play with my little brother a lot which is great! (he's 11 and I'm 23). That was my favourite part, goofing around with him all day. We all finally went to see Harry Potter... we were supposed to all go watch it together when it was released on the 19th but Mani came down so erica let me postpone it until he left. THAT WAS THE BEST HARRY POTTER FILM YET!
It was soooo cute! Although I always imagined my sister Erica to be playing the part of Cho.. trust me, my sister is so much cuter.. although the whole Scottish accent thing is adorable. My parents got a new car and the first day, Wendy parked it at a bar and someone came and smashed the driver's side door in.. needless to say, parents aren't pleased... that nut told my parents that she parked at Loblaws... Jebus!
I went out for cake with two of my girls Maria and Lisa.. we were craving cake so at night we went out to Demetri's and got all these cakes.. chocolate chocolate chocolate.. I went with the chocolate fudgebrownie cheesecake.. and no regrets.. OMG i've been eating chocoalte like a mad cow these days... Mani bought three boxes of chocolates whilst in Canada and I'm finishing up my very last Ferrero Rocher right now... his Godivas were to die for though.. i've learned that Mani = endless supply of Belgian chocolates.. and that in itself makes Mani a keeper. :P

So now that I'm back in ugly Kingston, I am missing Mani a super duper lot. Every trip I just feel more and more happier.. he's like the bucket in a well that scoops you up and takes u into the light.. no no more than that.. he's like the chocolate fondue that you get to dip ur strawberries into:D I like that better... holy can you say PMS?

Anyhow, I miss him so much it sucks so much. He spent so much money on this trip and I just can't ask him to come again so soon. I wish I had the money to go to belgium during reading week. Although I really really want to go there this summer. That would just be fantastic. He wants to tour Europe. There are a bunch of places I want to go. I had already been to visit him in Canterbury England but I'd love to see London.. and Paris and Milan and all the other fashion capitals of the world.. although Tokyo is quite a detour. Maybe I'll run into miss Mey in which case I'll have to force her to take me to sushi.

He wants to tour Europe but stay in hotels.. I MEAN WHAT KIND OF MONEY DOES HE THINK I HAVE RIGHT NOW!?! I can't let him pay for that! I wanna see Greece, Germany, Netherlands, France, Belgium ( obviously) Spain, Italy, England ..Oxford,... Thom Yorkes back yard....

oh! was anyone else outraged by the 2 second head shot of Jonny Greenwood in the new Harry Potter film!? What is the point of having such a CRAZY FANTASTIC CAMEO BY A GUITAR GOD IF U SHOW JUST HIS HEAD BEHIND JARVIS COCKER'S WRITHING BODY FOR TWO BLOODY SECONDS?!?!!?

Even still watching Jonny perform made me so nostalgic of those Radiohead concerts that I just am WAITING for another release!

Anyhow, there are way too many things I want to do and need to do with my life.. it's just so overwhelming from here.

wish me luck!

Nov 22, 2005 at 04:04 o\clock


Hello everyone!

Long time no talk!
I tried to get on here like 5 times before but something always went wrong with this thing. Anyhoo, Mani is still over and he's leaving this friday.. i'm so super sad! but we've had a lot of fun during that time. I have a bunch of homework to do and I'd write more but he just got out of the shower and might get angry at me for procrastinating so I have to go!!!
i promise to write soon!

Nov 13, 2005 at 05:57 o\clock

Hey all

So Mani is coming on Monday !!!!!!!!!!!!1 whoohoo! whatta guy! All just to cheer me up. I owe him a billion kisses.

I'm going to make him take me to go watch RENT in theatres.. can't wait! I feel bad because his trip has postponed my tradition of watching Harry Potter with my siblings until the weekend he leaves.. but I think my lil sister is so cute for wwaiting for me even though she is obsessed with Harry Potter.

Harry Potter.. did you know Daniel Radcliffe is REALLY close to his 26 year old makeup artist? She even gets together with him to hang out off the set.. I have a real problem with women like this.. quite simply.. it's f***ing disgusting. I don't care if you say you're just friends, you have a responsibility to protect this young boy from gossip and any possibility he might crush on you. I mean.. are you that pathetic that you have to entertain the idea that a 15 year old might like you and just milk it for your twisted self esteem? If that were my son, I'd slap the bitch so hard. I was thinking about this when I was watching Mary Kay LeTourneau's wedding on ET and I was like.. omg she's so pretty, I love her dress, I love her hair... waitaminute.. what the hell.. WHAT THE HELL AM I SAYING!?

I don't know how ET could have made it seem like such a fairytale union. First of all, she just selfishly dumped her husband and three children and has sex with her 12 year old student. After she gets sent to jail, she probably had conjugal visits or just visits from this boy. Then when she comes out, she has the audacity to marry him. I don't care what people think, he was too young to understand what love or anything was and she totally took advantage of it. Marriage?? he needs psychotherapy!  If I were Villy's mom I'd seriosly want to hurt her badly.

At first I wasn't so against this idea... I was like.. I guess they are adults now and she seems so into him ( mildly unhealthily obsessed actually)and they have a child.. I think I'm not sure.. but then I thought about my brother and it threw me into a violent rage.. i was like HELL NO BITCH I'LL SMACK YOU UP BLACK AND BLUE!

Perverts in this world... all sizes, races and sexes.. Ihate you all the most out of everyone.
Well.. I guess that's my stupid blog.. omg it was so lame i'm ashamed to post it.. but there is absolutely nothing in my life worth reporting at the mo that compares to analyzing Mary Kay LeTourneau's marriage :s

omg.. it's so sad.. I need to get out of this small town and head back to the city

Nov 7, 2005 at 23:47 o\clock

Pulp lyrics

I guess you guys won't appreciate how really romantic this song is unless you understand what this European is saying..haha..oh Jarvis.. do you know he mooned Michael Jackson? I think that's what he did.. although I love Michael's music too :s

"Like A Friend"

Don't bother saying you're sorry / Why don't you come in
Smoke all my cigarettes again / Every time I get no further How long has it been? / Come on in now, wipe your feet on my dreams
You take up my time / Like some cheap magazine
When I could have been learning something Oh well, you know what I mean, oh
I've done this before And I will do it again / Come on and kill me baby While you smile like a friend / Oh and I'll come running Just to do it again

You are the last drink I never should have drunk
You are the body hidden in the trunk
You are the habit I can't seem to kick
You are my secrets on the front page every week
You are the car I never should have bought
You are the dream I never should have caught
You are the cut that makes me hide my face
You are the party that makes me feel my age
Like a car crash I can see but I just can't avoid
Like a plane I've been told I never should board
Like a film that's so bad but I've got to stay till the end
Let me tell you now: it's lucky for you that we're friends.

Nov 7, 2005 at 23:06 o\clock


allo allo

Diddums: Frosh are... erm.. in American terms.. I guess it would be freshmen... or is sophomore younger? Oh wait,.. ithink you said you were in the UK... they are basically first years... but really.. they are all actually wild jungle monkeys thrust into an environment, civilization, of which they are unfamiliar so they react, and screech and jump around and cause destruction.. I don't know if anybody is a Cdn reader but my school recently had a riot on Aberdeen st during homecoming weekend. it was nasty.. all these stupid idiots flipped over a cop car and lit it on fire and they destroyed the property on the entire street.. Ihad fun partying but it takes a bunch of idiots to ruin it... see.. idiots is too kind a word.. I wish I had a stronger much more hateful word and then I wish I could seek out these idiots and call it to their face and I wish it would violently irk them. Don't you all often feel too damn smart to be classified as the same species with other humans? And god doesn't find any injustice in this at all!?!?!? argh

Anyhoo, good news finally! My bf is coming to visit me next week :D yay!!!!
he's so sweet! He's battered black and blue from his last rugby match so his nose is an unsightly blue and so are most areas of his arms... but still so cute to me :)
Can't wait!!!!

Nov 6, 2005 at 19:30 o\clock


I love this band. I knew about Helpthe Aged but I didn'
t know they were around for so long.. since Great Expectations!!!
Anyhoo, I think it was in grade 7 8 or 9 I saw this movie and I thought Gweneth Paltrow was the most gorgeous woman in the whole world.. she's too good for Chris Martin, Brad Pitt, Luke Wilson.. lessee who else has she dated... I think Tate Donovan once...oh and Ben Affleck.. ok so her taste in men is atrocious.. of everyone there I think Luke Wilson is the only one that ok.. oh wait I like Tate Donovan too as an actor.. but the rest make me sick to my stomach.

Yesterday something happened that made me feel a little bad for being condescending and mean to the froshies when I work at the desk. I'm not usually, just to the idiots who pretend to be drunk and are so obnoxious.. I have a bad habit of seeming sarcastic. IN any case, these three froshies come down and they are "drunk" or something and they start yelling a chant that is like 2 minutes long and they are SCREAMING it into each others faces but I decided that it's too lame to give it any acknowledgement and went on reading my text book as if they weren't there.

Then they finished this dumb chant

Total silence.

Out of embarassment, one of them lets out a pathetic " whoo!"

I keep reading my book

They say BYE! and run out the door

I look up but they are gone by the time I try to reply.

Then they come back in and are so ANGRY at me for some reason and they come over and push a binder that's on the desk where they sign out equipment but the kid doesn't manage to push it off so it's just half off the edge and he turns around as if he managed to inflict major damage on me and storms off in a hurry and they mutter " dumb desk clerk!" I kinda feel bad they never managed to throw the binder off the desk.. that kinda defeated the whole purpose. But really what did they want me  to do? Watch and be entertained by something I'd be so embarassed to be a part of?

It was really sad... I didn't know my acknowledgement of their idiotic fun meant so much to them( I say this in all honesty). And I know this because several minutes later they came by again and they said " hello" in the most sweetest voice imaginable.. like.. as if they were hoping I was human and not this cold-hearted robot across the desk. I looked up and said hi and smiled.. and I was thinking.. you kids are so weird, didn't you just try to knock over my stuff? I wonder what would have happened if I rolled my eyes and called them dumb. But I'm glad I didn't because after they walked by again and smiled and I could tell they felt a little less indignated because they had managed to befriend the monster across the desk.

This made me think a little.. how vulnerable people really are. Especially the ones that display their brutishness because of their insecurities... it seems no matter who you are and how obnoxious and stupid you seem, everyone is the same, and everyone wants to be acknowledged and loved. So although I acknowledge the fact that there is this underlying ackward insecurity beneath the actions of all the froshies....

I still can't stand them.

I seriously can't believe I ever was one.. someone MUST have felt the same about me.. and if you are reading this, i'm really sorry.


Nov 5, 2005 at 20:02 o\clock

I hate November already

Long time no entry.. and for the simple reason that my life sucks and is so boring because I'm stuck out here in the boonies and I want to go back home. I would have constructed a total lie if I had the imagination to do so but I didn't want to purport that I had a much more interesting life than doing statistics assignments all the damn time!!!!

Anyhoo!!! I changed my schedule around so I  could go home next next weekend to watch Harry Potter with my siblings but my little sister Erica decided to go home THIS weekend and not the next without telling me... so do you know what that makes me? S.O.L!

I wish I were in a better mood for everyone but that's not going to happen until I get my chocolate ice cream.. so I'm headed out to the local convenience store to get my fix

Hope you are all having a better month than me