Yesterday I woke up sucking a lemon

Aug 17, 2005 at 00:35 o\clock

will be back in a few days

won't be writing in awhile. see you in a few days:)
tchock busy busy busy

Aug 14, 2005 at 02:30 o\clock

My poor baby bro

So two days ago, Matty was playing soccer when he fell over because he didn't tie his shoelace properly and broke his tiny wrists in 2 places. My mom freaked and took him to the hospital where my poor baby had to wait 4 FRICKING HOURS! Then the stupid doctor misaligned one of his bones and told my mom they'd call the next mornign at 8. THEN! They didn't call the next morning so my dad took Matty back to the hospital they had to wait all day AGAIN.. fill out the same forms AGAIN! And then the stupid doctor who misaligned his bones says, " oh, you misunderstood, we said we'd call you if the specialist thinks they are misaligned but he hasn't had a chance to see them as he's been in surgery all morning" my dad said, " I'M NOT A DOCTOR BUT I CAN SEE FOR MYSELF IN THE XRAYS THAT THEY'RE NOT LINED UP PROPERLY!!!"

So now my little puppy of a brother is sitting at home with a humongous cast and his bones are healing improperly. If they have to break his bones again to fix what they could have done in like 2 mins I will seriously go break some heads.

So i'm alll the way 3 hours from home and Wendy is telling me this over the phone ( Wendy is one of my two beautiful sisters, she's really cool) and she's like, do you want to talk to Matty? Then she warned me, " don't freak out ok?" and I was like " psssh.. whatchu think I am?" but then as soon as I heard my little baby brother's voice i was like .. " OMG MATTHEW ARE YOU OK?!?!?!?!" bUT HE'S a troooooooooooooper.

When I go home, I'm going to buy him all the ice cream he can eat. ... and that's not an excuse to go out to eat ice cream.... for myself I mean.. i mean.. nm.

Anyways, I gotta go. I wanted to leave Shellbug a little note. I'm very very attached to my family too and I hope whatever ur going through right now will work out for you and ur family. Keep smiling beautiful.

goodnight everyone


Aug 12, 2005 at 02:22 o\clock

Not at all stingy :)

I recently decided to convert the euro into CAD dollars to estimate the amount of money my boyfriend had to spend this year to be with me in terms of plane ticket costs alone. This is minus phone cards and etc etc. WEll I was shocked to say the least It was so much money. I almost had a heart attack.

collectively, we must have spent like.. omg.. like every bus trip, car and train ride to and from the airports.. let's just say I could have bought myself an Oprah scale diamond earring! or two!


One thing I appreciate is that not once did he ever EVER make it seem a burden or make it seem that I owed him anything in return. One visit lasted only 3 nights! He's so cute :) I've been such a demanding brat and I totally took him for granted.  He's just THAT sweet. He just wants to see me :D

I'm writing about this because Mani has purchased another ticket to come down to see me. This time for 3 whole weeks! I'm SOOOOOOOO SUPER EXCITED!!!! soooooooooooo happy!!!!!

And because he's boyfriend of the year ( in my books) I'm going to put up the picture Shell made for me. I feel awful because I didn't make it myself but I totally think it :)

Isn't she the modern day Picasso? I think so too!


and thx Picassobug

tchock totally-reformed-appreciative-gf

Aug 11, 2005 at 02:12 o\clock

I took it all down

Mani finally saw my page and although he seemed to think it was sweet, he isn't keen on having my pic up there. So I took it all down. But I hope the regular visitors got to see what I looked like in case you were curious. Except for my lurker... u crazy So Yes! I hope everyone ishaving a good time! Talk soon! tchock

Aug 10, 2005 at 02:27 o\clock

Meet two more of my favourite friends

I want to introduce you to two treasured friends that I hold dear. Meet Tiffany... she's s stunner.. I've never seen anything more beautiful

I only get to see her sometimes though... when I press my face up against the window really hard. And I don't have to worry about her loyalty.. she's something that is FOREVER! I could call her my best friend. *sniff*

My next friend is Jimmy. Meet Jimmy Choo

I want him so bad!

Anyone who told you that you can't buy friends.. or love... was lying!
gotta go! enjoy my shiny friends.
tchock material girl

Aug 9, 2005 at 07:02 o\clock


I just got my Amnesty tshirt that they promised me on TV!!!! It's really bright blue, my favourite shade and they said that they hope that I will wear it so that maybe more people will get involved. But there is a problem! They never asked me what size I was! This thing is huge! It goes down to halfway down my thighs ( and I'm 5" 6 and a half!)and the "short sleeves" go past my elbows considerably! It's totally pajama material but how can I go to bed with a sound conscience knowing I'm not doing my part to spread the word?

Also they gave me a post card to mail to His Excellency Issayas Afeweki.. even though I'd like to address him as Your Assholeness. Aster Yohannes has been detained at an unknown location and denied communication with anyone from the outside world. Her husband is a prisoner of conscience. He was head of security and intelligence in the Eritrean People's Liberation Front during the liberation struggle. He abd other government ministers was arrested on the grounds of being a "traitor" when he was peacefully calling for democratic reform.

It's known that several thousand of these prisoners of conscience are being held without charge or trial since 2001 and some are believed to be in underground cells or metal shipping containers!

Not to be imposing, and not to remind you that you basically won a lottery being born in a western society, etc etc. I figured we'd be more persuasive collectively. Call for the immediate release of Aster Yohannes and her husband Petros Soloman and that she be given necessary medical care ( she has heart problems and asthma :(

His Excellency Isssayas Afewerki
president of the state of Eritrea
Office of the President
PO BOX 257, Asmara, Eritrea

I really hope some of you will write this letter. I had exactly 3 49 cent stamps in my wallet! (COINCEDENCE?!~!?) to be able to mail this out.

alright time for beds~
tchock the human rights advocate

Aug 9, 2005 at 02:34 o\clock


Today is my 10 months with my cute bf. He is so adorable. He single handedly made me think that men are adorable puppies made for us to love. Why am I gushing? I don't know! It perhaps has something to do with being in solitary confinement in my room and being cut off from the outside world for awhile. I cannot wait til I can finally party.

 Anyways. Happy 10 months Mani :)

OK. SOOOOOO.. I was going to put a few pics of me, friends and mani up. Sadly they are too big to fit so I can only show you one of my friends ( who is one of my bestest friends, Lisa) and separate pics of me and Mani :(:(:( So sad. So you'll have to try your best to put us together in your head. I was going to put up pics of my fam but my sisters are too pretty and I'm afraid a weirdo might take their pics and like.. build a shrine and stuff. no serious. My friends are pretty too but they can take care of themselves.. and also Lisa has like 4 older brothers that could be body guards so it's cool.

First up is Me. I'm sorry but the only pics that would take are of me on webcam talking to Mani. This was last year in residence so you get to see a year in review

First of all, this is lisa. being really cute and flirty for the camera!!

Next is Mani about to eat with me over the net.

Then eating..

Isn't he cute when he eats?
argh.. I hate putting pics of myself up.. :( ok but here goes nothing
This is a drunk pic of me that mani put up on his avatar once

but more accurately, I have taken up wearing glasses so the nextr pic looks more like me

Oh.. did I mention my bf is hot? I call the next one, "incredibod"

he could break me in half really. He tells me he never feels a thing when I hit him playfully.. and I like.. try to hurt him too!

sigh... I can't believe I don't have better pics than this.. I need to start jumping infront of the camera more often and pray for a good pic
i need to put up nicer pics! these are so ugly i want to cry! But atleast they're kinda funny to look at.. the candid shots of mani eating and me scratching my head.. hehehe

This is the chain mani wears around his neck all the time and then took it off for the first time in like years as a sweet gesture, for me to keep until I saw him again and me, being allergic to nickel got weird red rashes all over my neck the next day :(

This is Mani hamming it up infront of webcam. He's dancing hahah

And this is mani's favourite shirt.. ok.. now I have no pics.. well I do.. but they are too big to upload onto this stupid page.

Last one

this picture looks squashed but I can't fix it :s
aren't we cute?
Ok.. that's my present to Mani for today :)

tchock anniversary-rememberer-thanks-to-monthly-email-reminder-service

Aug 8, 2005 at 01:55 o\clock



somedays just f***ing suck

Aug 4, 2005 at 19:58 o\clock

quick blog

Ok very busy.. mani is moving from Dublin today.. he gets to stay at a swanky hotel before he leaves for Belgium though.. i love staying at hotels.. especially nice ones! So I'm very jealous! Also one of the movers gave Mani a whole set of golf club minus the driver and a functional putter but those are easily replaced. He said he's going to practice really hard and become better than me. Learning golf will definitely score brownie points with my golf obsessed dad.

Mani's ex girlfriend ( his first love) from highschool mysteriously emailed him. I find this incredibly intriguing! What does she want? What does she look like? I begged him to meet her if she ever suggested meeting but he's not fond of that idea because a) he doesn't want me to be jealous b) he's not that interested in having to make small talk with a girl he liked when he was 16. But I really want to know everything about her! What does she look like? what was it about her that attracted Mani? Is she interested in rekindling something with her first love? ( mani)

HE wrote back and I got to read the email because he gave me the password and everything. So in the sent messages box, I saw that he mentioned his " lovely gf" in Canada :D that made me happy.

She seems to be moving to Belgium too this summer ( her parents are in the army or something like that) So I really hope she emails back and suggests coffee! If she offers a meeting and Mani declines I'll be  SO ANGRY! Maybe I'll make Mani wear an iPOD with a mic attached to it so we can record this meeting :D Because i'm sure if she did hit on him, he would sugar coat it or decline to tell me altogehter.

Mani is now leaving and he's going to buy a calling card so he can call me from the hotel :) I'll bet he's staying at the Hilton in Dublin... he says the tax payers of Belgium are paying for their expensive move ( which compelled the mover guy to give his old clubs to Mani) and their hotel stay... man! Being a diplomat's son is so cushy!

Anyhoo .. on another note, I spent 45 mins today killing disgusting fruit flies in my apt with windex or fantastik.. whatever that corrosive cleaner is. and then rewashing every dish those nasty pests landed on!
My mom also bought me this nasty ginseng powder to chow down to improve my circulation. The other day, after I got up from sitting down, I lost all feeling in my leg and landed on my knees really hard!~ sucks! So the first day, I thought I'd mix it in with 2L of ginger ale! YARGH! THE WHOLE THING TASTED LIKE GINSENG IT WAS SO NASTY. But I gulped it down. The next day I decided to put the powder in my mouth and swallow it with water only the powder clumps on the roof of your mouth and it IS SO MUCH NASTIER I ALMOST PUKED! It's a good thing I'm scared to death of puking otherwise I woulda made a mess.

I tried a new strategy today. It's still nasty but better. What I do is, I drop some water on a spoon with the powder on it and then I made this clump.. kinda like building a sandcastle, only with ginseng powder on a spoon. then I place the nasty ass clump on my tongue and try to swallow. But it's so horrible, I literally gag before I work up the guts to swallow it. It's the best option so far but I'm still looking for better ideas. So if you have any suggestions how to get this ginseng powder into my tummy please let me know. mixing it in food and tea is a bad idea because the taste is as pervasive as onions ( which i love though) it's like, the only thing you can taste. Trust.. it's nasty!

Anyhooo.. there was my quick blog

Happy bday to one year old tejah!!!
Another happy bday shout out to Private thoughts of a redneck girl (shellbug) !!!!
I'm out!
tchock Ginseng consumer

Aug 2, 2005 at 05:14 o\clock


[ ] I spend %90 of my time on the computer.
 [ ] I actually like school.
 [ ] I am smarter than the average person.
[ ] I am up more at night than during the day.
 [x] I believe in God.
 [ ] I go to bed naked.
 [x] I can sing really well. [in my opinion, of course]
[ ] I would eat a bug for money.
[x] I am close with my parents.
 [ ] I am racist, prejudice and/or against a culture.
[x ] I talk a lot on the phone with the opposite sex.
[x] I dislike people judging me.
 [ ] I am conceited. [confident and conceited are very different, almost opposite]
[x] I care what people think about me.
[x] I am a good dresser with style and class.
 [ ] Someone has been jealous of me before. (No one has told me this seriously before so I'm assuming no
 [ ] Had an online relationship. (unless you count the one now but I am just resuming the relaionship online cuz he's far away. I've never met a stranger online before
[ ] I have been called a slut/whore/tramp.
 [x ] I take a shower everyday.
[x] I've drank alcohol before.
 [x ] I've ran away from home. ( i was a rebellious teen for a bit)
 [ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am. [and got caught]
[x] I collect something.
 [x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
 [ ] I open up to others [too] easily.
 [x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I watch the news, sometimes.
 [x] I own over 5 rap CDs.

 [x ] I own an iPod or MP3.
[x ] I own something from Louis Vuitton. (but I lost it)
 [x] I love Disney Movies.
 [x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes.
 [ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I've paid for a cell phone ring.
 [ ] I am a sports fanatic.
 [ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam. [spam must die]
 [ ] I bake well. ( when I wanna make cookies, I end up making hockey pucks)
 [x] I would wear pajamas to school. [and i have]
[x] I own something from my favorite store.
[x ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
 [ ] I am in love with love.
 [ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
 [x] I am self conscious. [about PDA!!!
 [x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[x] I drive a car.
 [x] I loved being a kid.
 [ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
 [ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
 [x ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
 [x ] I've been out of this country.
 [x] I believe in ghosts & angels.
 [x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
 [x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
 [ ] I love white chocolate.
 [ ] I bite my nails.
 [x] I am comfortable with being me.
[ ] I play video games. ( although I should try and like the same things as mani) [ ] I'm single.
 [ ] Spent the night at a guys house.
 [ ] Saw a shooting star. :(:(:(:(:(
[x ] Been to any other countries besides my own.
 [ ] I had a serious surgery.

 [x] Gone out in public in your pajamas.
 [x] I have Kissed a Stranger.
 [x] Hugged a stranger.
 [ ] Been in a fist fight.
 [ ] Been arrested.
 [ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] Made out in an elevator.
[x] Swore at your parents.
 [x] Kicked a guy where it hurts. (by mistake)
 [x] I am in love.
 [x ] Been to a casino.
 [ ] Been skydiving.
[x] Broken a bone.
 [x] Skipped school.
 [ ] Flashed someone that wasn't your boyfriend.
[ ] Saw a therapist. ]
 [x] Done the splits.
] [x] Played spin the bottle.
 [ ] Gotten stitches.
 [ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] Bitten someone.
[x ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
 [ ] Kissed a member of the same sex. ]
 [ ] Crashed into a friend's car.
 [ ] Been to Japan.
 [ x] Ridden in a taxi.
 [x] Shoplifted.
[x] Been fired.
 [ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
 [x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] Stole something from your job. (paper towels for goodness sake!)
[x ] Gone on a blind date.
 [x] Lied to a friend.
 [x] Had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] Not celebrated christmas.
 [x ] Been to Europe.
 [x] Got jealous of someone.
 [x] Gotten accused of something you didn't do.
[ ] Have children.
 [ ] Saw someone dying.
 [ ] Been to Africa.
 [ x] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[ x] Been to the USA and/or Canada.
 [ ] Been to Mexico.
 [x ] Been on a plane.
 [ ] Seen more scary movies than anything else.
 [ ] Made myself throw up.
[x ] Eaten lobster.
 [ ] Been surfing.
[x] Seen the ocean.
 [ ] Met someone in person from the internet.
 [x] Been to a concert.
[ ] Lost someone close to you.
 [ ] Tried to commit suicide.
[x] Plan to go to university/college.
[ ] Done hard drugs.
 [x] Taken painkiller's.
[ ] Had someone cheat on you.
[x] Miss someone right now.