Mood: happy believe it or not :)
Listening to: something on the radio not by choice
ok I'll write ! yeesh!
I have to say first, I think I scared my baby sister and a lot of my
friends with the volume of profanities I use in my writings. I never
swear in real life. It's just hard to articulate my feelings on e-paper
that I could otherwise get through in my voice or body gestures. I hope
I'm not offending anybody with my cussing... that being said.. enjoy
the fucking entry!
10) Men!
Don't get me wrong. I love me some Johnny Depp, some Michael Vartan,
some Thom Yorke, some Mani (of course) but I blame men, as a species,
for all the shit that's going on right now! The state of the
nation, war, the mistreatment of women abroad... you name it! I
blame them for undermining our brains and I blame them for all of my
girlfriends' insecurites and distorted body image issues. The other
day, I'm watching TV and Kim Cattrall was having a mini documentary
done on her right? And the entire show was paying tribute to the star
for PAVING the road for all the women. I'm really happy for her, she
really brought the idea that women over 40 have incredible sex to the
forefront but a big fucking lot that's going to do for me in the
future! Not every woman finds empowerment in filming softcore porn sex
scenes every episode in a show that basically tells me that all women
do is think about shoes and boy problems ( and I apologize to the crazy
Sex and the City fans who want to kill me right now, including my
sister Wendy) but come on! And this is not to diss anyone on the show,
I actually think Kim is hysterical. And who doesn't love Carrie?
But it made me think.. are our only assets really T n A? Is sex the
only tool for women to get ahead? What about authors, journalists,
musicians who don't sell their body to sell records? Where is the
tribute to them? OH no! Not on tv stations run by men. Oprah has the
right idea honouring all those women whose accomplisments go unnoticed.
And I’m not blaming those pop starlets for feeling the pressure to bare
all, I’m just saying it’s fucking sad!
And don't get me wrong. I'm by no means a feminist. My most extreme
feminist act is writing letters to the Mexican government telling them
to fuck off for failing to protect the women workers down there (and
now posting a blog on why it sucks to be a girl) . And I'm not sitting
here writing a bitter letter because I have any issues about my own
body. I know I'm quite lucky that I don't gain weight and I quite like
my body except I could use an extra inch in the length department.. but
do you see what I mean? Why should I feel that I have inadequacies
regarding the length of my legs cuz it doesn't EXACTLY replicate the
airbrushed images I'm shown on TV? My friend Brianna made a comment a
few months ago that I found very interesting. She said it's difficult
for women to separate feelings of self worth from acceptance from men.
(Somethign along those lines) because every image we're bombarded with
of beautiful women is a frame of how men want to view women. They
project their perception of female beauty ( tits and ass tits and ass
tits and ass..) and we watch it and we need to be it... ok.. maybe I'm
not articulating this properly. But I thought about it and I thought
SNEAKY! I totally didn't understand what she was going on about at
first but Brianna may be onto something here! So don't judge me!
Confident and self-assured girls can still be pissed off with the hand
their dealt .. to live in a world run by fucking sexist loonies that
undermine my talents and capabilities. My ex boyfriend Eric would
contend that any woman who feels that things aren't equal between men
and women in the world are a waste of breath and we have no right be to
angry but he's a sexist ignorant pig too.
( I should also note before I’m bombarded by a million comments, that I
know there exists nice guys whose intent is not to demean women, I’m
merely saying don’t be a naïf, there is a sexist in all of us, even
women on women and it SUCKS)
Oh and one more thing. There are so many pretty friends of mine out
there constantly second guessing their beauty. I just want to tell you
guys that you are sooo beautiful, inside and out! Love yousss!~ And all
the rest of my pretty friends who know it.. i love you bitches too :P
hehe
The next nine tomorrow.. happy?
tchock forever
PS. Mani thx for making me feel better today. You're a sweetie pie
