.x. tiring.mind .x.
Mood: happy-ish, and bored lol
Listening to: Foo Fighters
.x. the.world.is.a.cold.place .x.
Yeah....it doesn't feel like Christmas yet...I'm trying as hard as I can to get into the spirit of Christmas: I'm singing songs, decorating houses, wearing red, giving out christmas cards - none of it is helping. I've really screwed up...real bad...for something I can't even help.
Sunday was a nightmare. I had a sort of an argument with someone i really should'nt be arguing with. Its stupid too - we both want the same outcome - to be happy - we just have different opinions on how to get there. I don't want to let something so 'teen' ruin my christmas holidays. I wana hang out with this person...but I'm not sure if I can now!God...I hope Christmas doesn't suck...
On the same kinda subject, I'm getting over it, its not so much the person its me. This whole situation has just left me with no confidence in myself - which is totally unlike me. I guess now I just feel like second best in a lot of people's lives: my mum has her boyfriend, my best friend has hers, my brother has his etc etc. Just seems everyone has someone but me at the moment. I dont even have interest..but hey we all go through rough patches.
Anway, I'm not gona let Christmas be ruined...I'll try my hardest to keep smiling.
.x. till the next drop .x.
