.Regret.
Mood: annoyed at myself
Listening to: Inme
.x.top.of.the.world.x.
dont you hate it when you mess things up for yourself. Seems this past week Ive done a lot of that. The first example is my maths exam - i walked out with a healthy F or ungraded....but i guess thats what mocks are for right?! My other exams are going okay though..surprisingly. and i actually understand science for once in my little life! woohoo!
However, seems Ive screwed up big time for - get this - NOT being honest! Usually I get myself into bad situations for being brutally honest, but it turns out, in this situation, if Id just been honest about my feelings at the start, I could be enjoying something right now. A major hug and thanks to Kay for being; well...remotely honest, and even though I don't believe some of the stuff she said (and she knows this lol) i still appreciate her reassurance. I just wish I'd been honest and said what i thought at the beginning...maybe now it wouldn't hurt so much. But nevertheless, I've decided to let it pass over my head...what I can't have - no matter how much i want it, i have to accept. And Im fine with that, or at least I will be.
Other than that kind of depressing and extremely annoying matter, or matters my life is going pretty smoothly. At least I've had no arguments with parents over the last few days!! And Im still looking forward to Christmas - everything is looking sparkly again!
.x. keep.on.listening .x.
