Time passes but stupidity sticks around for tea!

Nov 28, 2005 at 14:45 o\clock

MADE YA LOOK!!

Mood: tired
Listening to: my phone ring before i am even out of bed!! DAMN!!

ok ok so i took a loooong writing sabatical!  dont worry there is much to update so hold on to yer hats today (somtime) i will fill ya in!!

Nov 9, 2005 at 15:44 o\clock

Im cleanin out my closet

Mood: reflective
Listening to: radio

Do you ever have one of those days where you think you got your shit together but tied so loosely that you know that it is going fall apart at any given moment?  Well right now the back guy and i are still emailing and i think i am unblocked....well for now.  The cowboy and i havent spoken since Sunday.....and Richy Rich is chasing me with such vigor that i will either have to run faster or give in.....hmmmmm for sombody with so many men in her life, why arent they in my life on my terms?  I think its time to start cleanin out the closet.........

Nov 7, 2005 at 14:37 o\clock

The simple life.....

Mood: Dunno for once
Listening to: Jaxxon snoring and the little voice in my head saying Get ready for work you twat!

Alright so saturday i made it out with Q (one of my gf's from work)  the soapopera unfolds when we bring along her horse riding coach's gf that he is 'on a break' with.  Now obviously this girl finds Q to be a threat to her relationship as Q too is 'on a break' with her repective partner and the riding instructor thinks she is cute.  Oddly enuff he also lied to is gf and told her that he would be staying home after already inviting Q and I out.  Needless to say we took his gf out instead.......boy what a fucking damper for me!!  I was front row center for a major pity party!!  It was insane because as we can all attest, if anyone needs pitying....its me (need i remind u of being dumped by button boy and being blocked by back boy,,,)  Anyhow we decided to go to a bar that Q had met her bf at...big mistake!! After a half hour she wanted to leave....np because i had just gotten a call from K and she wanted me to meet her at the stampede!! Yehaw!  so i told q that i was going to the stampede...'Oh good cuz my bf is there. Lemme know if he's misbehavin' NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! doh how did i rope fucking spy duty?  Well needless to say i got to the Stampede and there was still a line up at 12 am....so i met K and the rest of her posse at the little one tabled Greek bar in the same plaza......that sucked so i figured i better take a proactive approach to getting in.  I marched up to the two most stand outish guys in the line - Ben the most handsome yet young (19yrs) cowboy in line and his very large sidekick Bernie.  'Hey you dont know me but if i give 5 shiney dollars would you hold a place in line for my friends and i?  well lucky me they agreed!  So i went back into the little pub and let em all know the line was a go!!  after waiting a few minutes i returned to 'my place in line'  and got to know the boys better.  Ben was a 'Skid banger (not the musical type but the wooden moving type haha) and Bernie was a security guy who had just returned from the Yukon.  Long story short Bernie and i hit it off and he actually macked a kiss from me.....surprisingly it wasnt gross.  He was a bit aggressive and kept trying to get more but hey I'm a lady and had to decline (sort of) so we exchanged numbers and decided to keep in touch.........oh ya he lives 2 hours away!! haha i guess its better than 30!  We have texted a few times in the last 24 hours and i guess i will see where it goes......he claims to be 25 and well lets just say he is the most 19 year old 25er i have ever met.....but should i be calling a stranger a lier.........or kissing him for that matter

Nov 5, 2005 at 07:34 o\clock

OK OK i hit that point

Mood: finalized
Listening to: tv

Ok so i am freaked out...i am a cyber stalker....or so back boy thinks....well i think he thinks anyway.  He never said that but i have confirm tags on my emails that tell me where and when my emails are read.  the also have the http: header of the page that shows when they read my emails....well the last confirm tag that showed up had the same old http://f38.yahoo.mail... blah blah blah and normally it goes to show inbox and message id...well this time it said /blocksender2/inbox message id blah blah blah...like wtf i guess i am officially a psyco!! actually after reading my blog i agree! i put far too much effort into this guy for sure and i honestly cant believe i just couldnt let it and him go....oh well i remember saying i would read back when i knew i was being a dork well i agree i am a total dork now.

Nov 1, 2005 at 14:23 o\clock

Like whatever!

Mood: reflective
Listening to: My daughter doing the chicken dance

so here i am at the proverbial crossroads....i actually am feeling really positive today!  i dunno maybe its cuz i got my email...from...yes you got it...mr back guy!  yay!  ok before we all go off doing cartwheels lets take into consideration that the email was nothing spectacular, but hey it was conversation.  Right now he is in Vietnam and is on his way to Saigon and then off to Australia.  Needless to say i am still boggled by the amount he travels but do you know what boggles me even more?  the whole attraction thing.  I am still bloody confused how i am so attracted to sombody that i spent 2 days with......is that possible?  i am insure if i am over romanticising or if i really do like him that much.  I mean yes he was fine and funny but i think that the clancher came with how forward he was about everything...he took control of the situation and i was cool with that....it was refreshing...hhhhmmmm oh well maybe one day i will understand...or end up a crazy cat lady who wears her underwear on the outside!