mortality?
Mood: slighty anxious and ill
Listening to: the flys - got you (where i want you)
last night, for some strange reason, mortality suddenly hit me upside the head like a runaway freight train (sorry for the cliche). I was laying down watching a movie with my g/f and suddenly my thought process went through the following:
moving in with g/f
getting married
having kids
being 40 in 12 years from now
death
which seems silly to me now due to the fact that there is so much in between all of that, but at the time was not something that could help me during my anxious moments. not to mention that after death in the physical realm, part of me will be in the spiritual realm, but also hard to even consider when in such a tumultuous moment. thoughts of once i die i will no longer think or exist or anything was prominent in my mind and stomach. there was so much angst that this morning, after a night of odd dreams which seemed to be unrelated to my waking feelings, my stomach is uneasy.
