Rambling

went to mums place in blackburn to pick up some stuff. couldn't find the makeup case she was talking about. i guess i will get it eventually. got my rollerblades and ice skates though and my dinner set that i asked my brother for weeks ago. It is never going to change and i wish sooo much that it would. my brother is getting help from (r) to move. mums way of stopping dad from helping probably. why does she have to play everyone against each other simply so SHE is the fucking centre of attention. It is alright for her to wlak past me in the toilets and forget to tell me she is selling, lie to the rest of the family and my therapist, insult me and yet i am the bitch for getting hurt and fed up. whatever i do, i am a bitch and awful daughter and whatever she does she is an awful mother. i wish she would stop it. It would be on a par with me telling dad, matt, all our neighbours and everyone else that i am moving interstate or overseas again and then not telling mum. Maybe then she might just get it. Anyways, not a lot else to write. work today. i have this weekend off which is good. be nice to have my first weekend off in ages. Anyways not a lot else to write. got to see (k)'s new place last night and watched the Commonwealth Games closing ceremony. It was pretty good. Other than that, pretty boring. I need to take up a hobby so i can meet people. maybe even hockey agian.....dunno, but i fully intend to go blading along the esplanade on the weekend. even if it is by myself. it has been ages since i did that. i didn't bother getting my wrist guards though which maybe i should have......i don't really need them though. I do need a helmet. (K) has taken up dancing, sounds fun but really not something i would see myself doing. Well, don't have a lot else to write so will call it a night. i have uploaded a pic of my cousins wedding and also (j and mum and t and the new baby).