getting ridiculous.
OK. That anxiety was a little bit much.....
Still have not heard from my mum, brother or dad since i had lunch with him......this is not even worth the energy it really isn't. I have every right to move on with my life. They can accept me or not.
On the plus side. Went out Sat night which was actually pretty enjoyable. One things is puzzling me though. "I don't have normal conversations with my friends..." I still don't understand what my shrink meant by that.....
I am doing my darndest to get on top of things and am just fed up with feeling swamped by stress.
I am afraid of my mother.Afraid of expressing opinions in front of her and fed up with feeling like I can't have a conversation with her.
Part of me resents having to go to see a shrink. The other part of me is greatful to be getting a supportive ear for my perspective for ONCE. She's interesting in how she coaxes out of you whether or not you are attributing blame etc....Seems to have quite a skill at generating a reaction that will indicate exactly what she whe is 'checking' for. You don't notice it sometimes.
I am still reeling from the fact my mother read this and bloody took it to her behind my back and now she is selling and accuses me of playing games.
Anyway. Sorry. more of the same old crap.
Bought my cousins wedding present today. Some towels and stuff from Sheridan at David Jones that were on the registry.
Am going to go to the beach tomorrow and get some pictures to print off. Need to fix up rent as well before i get stuck with shifts on my roster that mean I have no time left to pay. Spent today watching some DVD's as well.
Was interesting listening to one of my friends talking about hanging out at a shopping centre with a group of kids when she was in high school.....just a general comment. and yet it hit me I never really had a lot of that. I really was pretty shy and confused and felt like a friek when I was diagnosed for turners. But on the other hand it hasn't stopped me. I have lead a pretty full and colourful life so far. What doesn't hurt me can only make me stronger I suppose.
Am going to see the Lion King at the Regent Theatre next Wednesday as well which I am looking forward to. So things aren't all bad.
