change
why wont people let me change. I am so sick of being in the mould of 'the difficult' one. For once i am simply trying to give mum and (t) the space they want and they are taking it as if i am pissed off at them . I am SICK OF NEVER BEING ABLE TO DO ANYTHING RIGHT. No, all i could bloody worry about was being kicked out of the house. THEY ARE BEING COMPLETLY UNFAIR> THEY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL WAS GOING THROUGH MY MIND>AND IT SURE AS HELL WASN'T SHIT LIKE THAT>
I AM SICK OF BEING THE BLACK SHEEP OF THE FAMILY. I DONT WNAT IT TO BE THAT WAY ANYMORE< AND WHEN I TRY TO TELL PEOPLE THIS THEN THEY GET PISSED OFF WITH ME> I AM TIRED OF TAKING ON EVERYONE ELSES EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE> ESPECIALLY MUMS
I AM TIRED OF NOT FEELING LIKE I CAN BE MYSELF AROUND THEM> I TRY TO PLEASE THEM AND IT FALLS ON DEAF EARS ALL THE TIME> THEY HAVE NOT EVEN ASKED ME ABOUT DINNER WITH MY FRIENDS THIS WEEK OR THE PEOPLE AT WORK> I AM TIRED OF TRYING TO APPEASE THE SITUATION SIMPLY BECAUSE THEY HAVE THE WRONG END OF THE STICK AND THINK I AM PISSED OFF AT THEM> I AM TIRED OF BEING IN THAT MOULD> AND THEY DONT SEEM PREPARED TO BELIEVE ME OR LISTEN> FOR ONCE I AM NOT ANGRY AT THEM I SIMPLY WANT PEACE AND TO BE LEFT ALONE> I HAVE FUCKING COLD I AM SO RUN DOWN WITH STRESS>
WHAT THE HELL DO I DO>I AM TIRED OF NO ONE EVER ACTUALLY BEING ON MY SIDE AND FEELING LIKE I AM BANGING MY HEAD AGAINST A BRICK WALL> I AM SICK OF MUM REPEATEDLY TELLING ME I THINK SHE IS AN AWFUL MOTHER> I DON"T BUT IF SHE IS FEELING GUILTY THEN I WISH SHE WOULD STOP WITH THE EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL.
