Rambling

have tried writing an entry twice and it has timed out on me. frustrating.

it was a post about my friendship with (K) and just how sometimes I find her a little obnoxious and wonder how we are still friends. We arent really fighting, but sometimes I just wonder how it works when we are so opposite. I hate being labelled or tagged and I get fed up with people losing interest in who I am simply because I find it hard to be totally outgoing. I am ok with her one on one usually, but just from time to time some of her comments are quite irritating. I need to stand up for myself a little with her.

I am going to miss (L) a lot. part of me wishes she wasnt going. But the other part of me knows it is a fantastic opportunity for her. The goodbye party on the 24th was nice, I enjoyed mixing with her other friends.

I need to actually start going to the gym or get some other interests maybe then i wouldnt be such a bore, that is part of the problem. I dont HAVE much TO talk about at times because I am so lonely. I keep saying I will go to a boxing class, need to actually try and get to one or even aerobics if the schedule at work doesnt suit. 

I need to stop letting people walk all over me and speak for me and FUCK their assumptions.

The trip to the snow with the girls from work has now become a horse back winery tour weekend instead which is a little less expensive, should still be fun.

Not a lot else to write, I am not going to rehash the entry I had prepared. I feel better just writing it, never mind if it is published.

EQUAL.  is my word of the month.