Wow.
had a pretty good appointment with my shrink today. I am feeling a lot stronger and confident. I think doing the multi lingual stuff at work gave me a bit of a boost, that and i dont have the other distractions 24/7.
She basically said mum was bullying me, which considering what i wrote about my diary being read makes me feel confident that I am not a complete nutbag for feeling frustrated with that relationship.
I am looking into continuing japanese lessons, as it is a great skill to have and would be a shame to lose what i learnt over there. Have joined a gym as i may have already mentioned. So i am basically feeling pretty happy and like things are getting on track which is nice.
I am glad i keep a diary sometimes, this year especially it has proved quite useful documentation of things in the past, which are exactly that.
Did some christmas shopping today - will probably finish the rest this week. Have myself booked in for a massage and facial tomorrow which I am lookng forward to.
Will need to find myself a table and chairs after christmas as the ones i had ordered were recalled by the manufacturer for safety reasons.
Was funny I read (Je) blog online on saturday the chick i lived with the first trip to Japan and i guess it made me realise how much we obviously didn't get along. She has just written an entry about being harrased by some guy at a party who is a friend of a friend. It just made it hit home. She didn't care less about me while i was there and when i told her minor details about what happened could not have cared less. Fuck that for a joke. bitch. I might be being nasty but she would have deserved it if i had started slaggling her off like what she did to me. I had the decency not to say anything and she was an absolute cow to me.
sorry, didn't mean to end the entry on a bad note, it just hurt that's all. Why go to so much trouble if you don't like someone. I guess people get off on bullying and picking on people and she obviously gets attention for it and people think she's funny when she does it.
No all in all my shrink was happy with my progress - japanese, guitar, gym, swimming........and the interests I am getting back into to establish myself AGAIN. "The only thing missing is a boyfriend" she said. I was a little hesitant and said i was a little concerned how the whole (j) thing that happened on the 2nd trip would impact. Probably sounds strange to read, but I still can't comprehend someone who was fucking three girls and then days after being threatened with being fired by the boss, is in the office bragging about some chick he fucked on the desk.
Anyway sorry to keep harping on the same shit, but believe me things really do seem to be getting easier. Whilst (t and j) were bastards I at least learnt the improtance of standing up for myself.
