Thursday
Meeting mum for coffee tomorrow. Should be interesting. It has been 5 or 6 months pretty much....and I still have no idea what I am going to say. I don't need to be messed with anymore or bullied or manipulated or whatever. I still haven't made any progress with my brother. Not once has HE suggested a get together and he is like oh you could go over and get your stuff. Not once has anyone even bothered to talk to me about why I don't see her and yet I am the bad guy. This is NEVER going to change so I am better off away from it because it is too heart breaking and eshausting trying to get something that isn't going to happen. I never understood that before, but now I don't have the added confusions it is a lot easier to focus and I regret feeling like I wasted my early twenties.
It is hard enough to accept I have probles without all this added shit on the bargain as well. I am very hurt at the rejection I feel.
On a brighter note I have (k's) birthday to go to which I am looking foward to a lot. Should be a good party. More later.
