Rambling

Lunch with dad tomorrow. YAY

Had some weird person calling me at home tonight from interstate - wrong number and dickhead called three times.

Work is busy and exhausting and boring and the same.

Had my doctors appointment last week, need to keep taking my vitamin d. didn't think I had to do it permanently, part laziness. levels were not good.

starting to organise travel insurance for my trip, which is good. will feel less stress once I have that out of the way.

I need to book a tour or something as well for a few days.

my brother is going to Tasmania with mum and her partner for 10 days - dad told me this. they leave on saturday. i give up. But I suppose it's not like actually telling me would change things. I will be working on christmas day and probably do something else with dad and my brother like usual around boxing day or christmas eve. something. It stinks, the longer it gets left the worse the rift become and the harder it is going to be to get over or put the relationship on track again. But she knows where to find me. Not like she has picked up a phone or comet to visit since I found out what was happening. She has hardly had the guts to face me and was not interested in talking to me at (my cousin As wedding). ok vent over. 

no other news really, life is pretty boring. funny about that. I read other peoples journals or blogs i should say and some of them are a lot less serious (especially the ones by people in my age group) and yet there are also a lot more sadder ones. People with serious illnesses, drug problems, bi polar, drinking problems divorcing....sometimes that makes me lucky but at other times i listen to people my age at work and from reading blogs and they all seem so much more easier and less baggage. I resent that and can tend to find these sort of people spoilt, and immature, maybe that is wrong of me but it probably does not help me try to relate to people my age when i think they are immature fuck wits with no problems (they may have....but you get my drift)