The January Birthdays
Dinner for mum's birthday tonight. My brother called her to take her out, she invited me. He was supposed to have called me. I know she is putting words in my mouth. I will be pissed off at him because he didn't call me. NO. He doesn't need to because she will do it for him for god sake.It is never going to change....
She is a possesive attention seeking control friek and I am tired of it and her and just wish things could be different between us but they never are....I can't keep trying to tell her the same thing. I just hate feeling isolated from the rest of the family because she wants all the attention and doesn't like it when i try and be attentive to someone else. I am never going to be happy in this family if it continues......
Anyways, (t's) birthday is on the 9th as well and then my brother's on the 13th.
I will simply be my usual silent overpowered puppet self. Damn it and Damn her. I know that's not the nicest comment, but I can't help it. I am so frustrated by the apathy i feel from this family.
Need to go tonight with a positive attitude tonight though. Push it aside, she doesn't like the slightest criticism oh hell no, becuase oooooh she's not a good mother. Grow Up for fuck sake. But maybe I need to take some of my own advice ne. I feel like I go out of my way and all I ever receive is rejection.
I genuinely want her to have a good birthday, but I am pretty hurt at the moment.
