Still thinking about him
Well, I am still thinking about the boy from my last post. I deleted him off facebook to try help me move on. I am really hurt. I really thought maybe he liked me. Guys don't think I reciprocated any interest though so I guess it is understandable he gave up if I wasn't being overly interested. I was hesitant because I was surprised and I didn't want to put myself on the line and have him do exactly what he has just done (ignore me). If I had gone hell yes come visit next month when he had emailed that and he didn't reply I would have been even more gutted. But this is hurtful too cos I feel led on.
I have a date on Thursday which I am nervous about....have no idea what to talk about and it is the first date date I have had since I was 19. I think Iam a little to hung up on the other guy to really be thinking about someone else, maybe the distraction will be a good thing though. Hard though when all I wanted was to see someone else when I went back home this weekend and he ignored me. I didn't email him directly though...maybe I should have. But he still should have replied to the group thing and if he gave a shit he would have.
I am embarrassed because I probably made it very obvious to him as well by deleting him from facebook. Also embarrassed that people said yes they would come and just didn't fucking come. Rude considering all the trouble I went to with the food.
