Rambling

HOME AGAIN

The flight home was a bit of a blur. I watched two movies but was not really concentrating. I am still too upset thinking about what has happened.  I cried a little and tried to get some sleep.

It is a relief to be back home in some ways but i am also a little disappointed. I'm going to miss my independence and having my own place, but it's going to take me a while to get back on my feet.

I am on tranquilizers which mum is not happy about and having been to the doctors they want me to cut down on them. At the time iwas too upset at the first harrassment being made a running joke under my nose and not even realising it until my old boss and old city confirmed the "rumour" mill for me.

Anyway, will keep you posted. I am hoping to settle back into things. There are some family issues i need to deal with as well and i really need to decide what i want as a career. I guess i did learn something positive from this and at the least something positive came of it for the company as well, they might be better prepared for handling something like this next time. But at the moment i am a bit of a train wreck.

I have a holiday to see the grandparents for a bit with my father which should be good. But i am 26 and starting to hear the clock ticking in terms of career. Finding the answer is not going to be easy, my friend (p) already told me this, but there is a lot of emotional baggage i need to sort out first.

I know there is two sides to every story, but all i ever wanted was for the harrassment issue to be left alone in the new office and be able to do my job but they were too worried of the potential damage i could do if i actually DID say something. After what i went through the isolation and bullying and then to make the harrassment the running joke was just sick.........and they wonder why i needed to see a counsellor and couldn't handle being the only chick in the office.