Hmmmm.....
things that make you go hmmm. Had lunch with my brother yesterday. Told him i was moving and have told dad i was moving. They both were pretty cool about it. have told (j and z) about it as well. They were pleased for me. The only one causing me some anxiety is telling my mother. I hope my brother doesn't tell her before i do. I have had some discussion with my dr about how to do it and dad was actually surprisingly good giving me some advice for handling her. I just have a bad feeling it is going to blow our fight up again. We really need space from each other at the moment. I can't handle the stress my family is creating. I know i have to change how i relate to them a little, but it is hard when none of them seem to be acknowledging that i am desperately trying to do so and it just keeps getting thrown back in my face - by mum in particular at the moment. The dr's appointment together didn't help either. I want her to stop trating me like a child. I am kind of preparing myself for the fall out when i tell them, because they are going to be hurt i think. I just want them to be happy for me. Anyways, have a dinner party tonight. Try and put telling mum to the back of my mind. I think the space will be good for me. I don't have to see the family if i don't want to. I think they need time to put some perspective into things. I am fed up with her interfering (translation "helping") and trying too hard.
