Rambling

Bought myself an Alannah Hill suit the other day. matching shoes yesterday when i went shopping with (l). the outfit i bought before i had lunch with dad. It is a gorgeous suit i can wear out to special functions and i could get away with wearing it to work perhaps as well. YAY. It is a pink/brown colour and i love it. It will last me for a while it is a timeless cut and i can mix the skirt and jacket dont necessarily have to wear it all together. all up has cost me about $500. But i rarely buy anything like that, so...... All these chicks saw me with the bag and would stop to enquire about the purchase - she is an expensive designer.....well known. The attention seeking sideof me liked the compliments on the purchase, but part of me frowned on the snobbery, they wouldn't have talked to me otherwise - or am i being pessimistic.

 Saw Xmen 3 the other day at the movies as well. It was ok. Interesting because they all changed sides and yeah, good to see different side to the characters, but not totally amazing. maybe not worth $11. (L) is all excited about her trip to London. can hardly say i am surprised. It is fantastic. Got my pics from Noumea printed. Pretty. Work today and until Wednesday so nothing too exciting to report there. Things have been pretty quiet which has been nice. We are out at Mulgrave tomorrow. I get a taxi to work which is kinda cool. dunno about km money or not for the day....who knows. doesnt really matter. Don't have much else to add. Am pretty happy at the moment.

 Oh yeah saw my shrink. See her again in about a month. She wants to see how i put a couple of things into practice so i have a feeling it wont be the last either unfortunately. I really dont want to continue therapy tough, perhaps i should tell her this. I just am at a point where analysing everything only adds (or at least it was before) to my stress. I dont understand what she is looking for to let me go. She says i am doing really well which i fnd patronising as well. How many people come home from practically being raped and then being bullied by their mother who will go so far as to lie and say her own daughter is suicidal and then cut off ties with her. The said daughter has no idea this is the case and is picking up on something and trying to appease the situation only to find this out and feel majorily betrayed. DONT tell me i am doing really WELL. Nothing has changed. Therapy hasnt improved the way the family interacts with each other and it hasnt mad e me see anything i didnt already know about myself. I dont get it.