Mar 22, 2011 at 11:15 o\clock

My Brain Hurts

Title says it all. I am thinking too much.  Thinking too much about my ex boss, thinking too much about getting away from my job - the department is so understaffed it is awful, things just aren't being done on time. I am too anxious to hear back from my interviews....had another one today, see how I go - they have three rounds soooooo not expecting too much from that one. I guess I am just sucking at selling my skills at the moment or being too desperate and applying for the wrong stuff. 

Drinks after work on Friday....to say goodbye to the head of department that got retrenched....might go for a couple, will be something to do and beats sitting at home alone. I don't go out much in Sydney at all. That's the other problem, I am still lonely. The guy I work with is from Melbourne as well and we both make the same comment about how unfriendly this city can be and how rude and cliquey people are at work. So at least someone is on my wavelength. He is pretty much the only one I am really close to there in the whole department. We both find the other lady in the team a handful at times and are actually enjoying her being away. We are both glad the boss has gone and found him difficult and rude. 

Anyway, not a lot else to say tonight. I am just feeling really frustrated and feeling stuck I guess. I waited at a flight centre to check out trips overseas....so I am getting close to just simply handing in the resignation. But I know mum will kill me if I do. I have been job hunting since October with a bit of a break over Christmas....and still no luck. Haven't heard back about the internal role yet. Wish they would hurry up. If I don't get it that is going to make me really upset though cos it will be number 4 unlucky. Embarrasing.  I don't understand why I am finding things so hard. I loved being at the bank when I was in Melbourne and I felt like what I did was valued and important and I felt included and liked. I feel absolutely none of those things here where I am working now. I started this job really enthusiastic and excited and my treatment has just left me totally discouraged, deflated and like I am worthless and am stupid. We have another team member going part time soon which means I will basically be alone in the afternoons to over the phones which I am sooo not happy about. I seriously hope I find somethingh else before then. The other worry is that that back up person is looking for a new job so my team will have virtually no one and I will be carrying things. I am worried. 

Sorry I guess I am just quite stressed about work at the moment and dealing with narky pissed off planners on the phone  and then rude people all day doesn't help either. 

Alright that's me for tonight. This month has gone really quickly. My choir performance will be soon. YAY. 







Mar 18, 2011 at 12:15 o\clock

Still no luck


I went for another job interview last Friday - didn't get the job. It would have been a career change if I had...and using my degree for once, but I really didn't have any experience I guess I was setting myself up for a fall there. I tried.

Still haven't heard about the internal one I went for, they finished 1st round interviews this week and mentioned there would prob be 2nd rounds.....so I am not thinking it is a good sign I have not been asked for one or heard anything yet. Which is a shame. 

We had someone else leave last week. Another lady is moving departments and the head of has been made redundant so pretty big changes happening. 

I just wish I knew what I was doing wrong in my interviews. I saw a temp agency just to register a few days ago.....see how that goes, not holding my breath. Never heard about the other one I met the client for a couple of weeks ago and never heard back from the agency as to whether the client wanted to meet so just not having a lot of luck at all. A couple of others the salary has been to low for so I said no I wasn;t interested in an interview. What is wrong with me. I just want to get out of there because I am so sick of the bitchiness and rude people. 

On the other hand things are much easier without the older lady in my team being around. It really is much calmer. She does seem to get off on stirring up trouble and gossip. But really the whole department does it, there are simply just certain cliques that stick together that's all. 

Just thinking how many interviews I have been for and well over half of them have simply ignored me rather than tell me I didn't get the job. How rude is the recruitment industry! That is just crap. 

4 internal

6 or 7 recruitment agencies and absolutely none told me unsuccessful or that client was not interested in meeting me.

4 direct with client and no response of the outcome. 

1 forgot to even show up to the interview.

that I can remember off the top of my head since October when I started looking. 

Wish me luck that I fins something soon. 

My boss had his farewell about 2 weeks ago now. It is different without him. The boys seem quieter in a way. I like the interim boss and find him approachable and he actually talks to us and has a degree of friendliness towards us as human beings and doesn't just completely ignore us the whole day. If that makes any sense.

I went to my bosses goodbye lunch and drinks (I got roped into organising the lunch, I didn't really mind so much but seriously, he is lucky it was me cos neither of the other two would have done anything). He didn't get a lot of money for his present. 

On another note, I am enjoying the choir rehearsals. Have had three so far. The performance is inMay, which I am looking forward to. 

Went to see my cousins baby last weekend. She is beautiful. Also caught up with a friend, which was good fun. Drank a fair bit.   

Oh and scary but had some dodgy purchases on my credit card which I just disputed with the bank, so hopefully that gets sorted. Only $100 bucks so not as bad as it could have been which is good. 

Anyway, enough for tonight.